Milano

My shoes n outfit for e day out shopping!!

In Milano

(can u believe it, i'm in italy n eating freaking chinese food??!!)
gimme my pasta - anytime!!

honestly, i dun like eating chinese food in italy.. coz it's super salty n it doesn't taste as gd.. moreover, i was going to be there for only like 4 days.. but whatever, i've already eaten it..

While waiting for e food to b served, I decided to camwhore with my fav camera.. it's not mine though..



Me
(it was taken in e auto mode, no touch ups or anything..)

Taken in vivid mood

So bored n tired, tt i kept fiddling with e cam..

And this is in a special mood (i'm not telling what it is).. n i LUV it..

my bag for e day (in 2 colours)

e hotel tt i'm staying (it's got lovely beds)

camwhoring at e hotel reception

n in e lift again..

N den it's off to bed..

Zzzzzzzzzzz

The tiny beam of Light

someone once told me this..

In life, u got to meet e wrong ppl b4 u know u meet e right one.. things happen for a reason..



In a way, I think its true.. alot of things hv been pre-planned.. alot of experiences for u to go thru b4 u toughen up n grow wiser.. each day i learn something (i hope) to make myself smarter n to make myself wiser..

I've met many ppl in my life. some left a HUGE impression n still surround my life while e others just linger for a moment n off they go..

i mayb forgetful nowadays n forget things, but i realli appreciate how bb has moulded my life n now it surrounds him.. tt's all i need. for him to be there when i come home everyday.. esp after a rough day, he comes round to pick me up.. n i can unload my unhappiness n tiredness n den i'll b fine..

I'm thankful to him, for letting me into his life and allowing us to grow tog..

Thank you,
My love

For being there whenever i need u..

e irony

e core of e prob is drinks..

i seriously think i shld stop drinking..

Alone

nobody knows and no one understands..

perhaps alot of ppl would not understand.. i dun need anyone to understand.. i put myself in this kinda trouble.. i need to go thru this kinda shit.. n i blame no one..

no one understands...
n i mean no one..

Sometimes when I leave singapore for too long.. and esp when i lock myself in e rm for too long.. Many thoughts run thru my mind..

Somehow I think they r not exactly pleasant.. Perhaps in a way, its what my subconscious is thinking abt.. in reality, i hate to face up to these problems tt i have.. its easier to run away fr them.. though it doesnt solve e problems, it temporarily soothes my mind..

honestly, i hate it when i choose to be a coward and duck all e problems..
i feel like a small child, covering her ears so she wouldn't hear tt she doesnt wanna hear...
covering her small eyes pretending not to see..
in a way, it's tearing her up inside.. but she cannot show it.. she needs to be strong..
perhaps tt's y sometimes its easier to be e 'bad' person. n mayb they will give up on her.. perhaps its a easier way to get out of e situation..

e dreams i have feel like what i see in reality.. its comes back n haunts me when i let my guards down.. each time i shut my eyes tighter n pray tt e next dream will b a beautiful dream.. something sweet tt can take me away fr reality (even if its just for a few hours)

nobody knows e hurt tt she feels inside. nobody understands..

It's easy to judge someone..

but it's not easy to understand someone..

Decisions..

Sometimes i feel when we r u in a zone tt so familiar, so comfortable tt u dun wanna leave..

I've been thinking for quite a while.. i feel as if i'm in a dilemma.. shld i stay or shld i just leave.. is e grass greener outside? I wonder...

How it is so easy to fall in this area whereby u know u can survive (enough for u to keep a job).. But of coz which job wun make u complain?? even a little?? its common for ppl to stay in this comfort zone tt doesnt render any more "IQ" or more effort??

Its easy to see time fly with each outstation "assignment" tt u have scheduled.. how gd it is to see tt with e kinda fun u hv each day n yet see yr bank acc adjust itself at e time each month?

These days i think to myself.. will i be able to do it? tear myself away fr this lifestyle n den adapt myself to something tt is more mandant n routined??

I know i made a promise.. I intend to keep it for e sake of our happiness. i know it will be gd for me... eventually.. young as can be, i cannot be selfish n playful anymore..

soon.. e time will come, when all of this is over.. i know i will miss e days.. whereby i can just lie in bed n do nothing.. n yet i know tt i still hv e ability to feed myself..

right now, i cherish each time when i get to stay in a nice hotel whose bed is not mine..
bcoz..
perhaps..
this might b e last time i ever get to lie in it..

Bitten by e travelling bug..

I've got this sudden urge to go travel around e world.. so many places tt i wanna go b4 i grow old..

somehow i feel tt sometimes we r bounded by this restriction of e society. i.e. u shld get a job after graduation, hv a stable income to support yrself.. its as if there's this invisible rule tt we restrict ourselves to.. perhaps its e pressure of yr parents, elders, peers and even e next generation..

but regardless, there's a list of places i wish to visit b4 i dun hv e ability to:
1. France ( Paris, Champagne, Nice, Cannes)
2. Italy (Rome, Tuscany, Milan, Florence, Venice)
3. Czech Republic (Prague)
4. Spain (Barcelona, Madrid, Ibiza)
5. Greece (Athens, Mikonos, Santorini)
6. North America (New York, LA, San Francisco, Washington, Mexico)
7. South America (Argentina, Brazil)
8. Maldives
9. Japan (Hokkaido, Kyoto, Osaka)
10. Phillippines (Cebu, Bohol, Palawan, Puerto Princessa)
11. Thailand (Krabi, Phuket, Koh Samui, Bangkok)
12. India (New Delhi - just to see Taj Mahal)
13. Indonesia (Lombok)
14. Papua New Guinea
15. Fiji Islands
16. New Zealand

I think with time, e list will continue to grow.. but hopefully e cities in bold would grow too!!