it's weird... every time i make a decision some1 would b there 2 make me regret it.. certain things would nv b clear-cut, no1 gives u a chance to explain n everything... intially i thought all this blogging is gotta make me feel better as i voice out but somehow it has created so many misunderstanding etc... it allowed so many ppl to mistake things... mayb this would b the last post ya shall see..

i think i m a v hard-hearted person n i dun give second chances.. to add on, i dun really listen to opinions which i dun wanna hear.. my character has been moulded till i dun easily accept ppl's ideas.. so self-centred right?? much as i wanna give in, i dun really know how, my dignity comes before anything.. i can let go of anything except tat, juz like a male's ego.. wo shi da nu ren i wun deny that at all.. i used to b mean n i guess i haven changed at all den... but honestly i dun care... coz if ya opinion of me is negative, i wun even try to change it... thus luv me or hate me...

i dun like to harp on the past, i made alot of mistakes b4, ever since my sec sch days... at 13, still a stupid gal who cant tell who's nice or not blah blah blah... 6 yrs down the road, met alot of new ppl n had alot of new experiences.. for those, that i have taken 4 granted, i apologised (sincerely) for those who have loved me n i didnt return ya luv, i m still sorry.. for those who i have luved but didnt luv me back i m still grateful for everything... for every1 contributed to part of my life memories happy or sad... i came across this phrase recently as i was reading ( DUN b shocked, yes i read!! )

Giving some1 ya luv isnt an assurance tt they'll luv u back. dun expect luv in return; juz wait for it to grow in their heart; but if it doesnt, be content it grew in yours.

From puppy luv to some1 who i really tried to luv, not only i grew up, ppl around me grew... if u r reading u know who u r.. if i wasnt so daring in the past, i would b a different me now.. probably.. no1 can bring back the past, i cant n i shouldnt too.. every1 gotta learn to move on in life, coz everything continues whether it rains or shine, b it ya mood or the weather outside.. yes, i have missed certain things in life, like i didnt know how to appreciate some ppl in the past or even now...

i guess its enuff of my blah blah blah for the day... gotta bathe n head for my work now, or i m gotta b late, but honestly it doesnt matter coz i m a measly paid semi-optom... cant wait for my license though, then hahaha... i know it's juz a piece of lousy paper that costs $180!! but that's how it goes... whatever at least then i wun b paid measly! Y cant March come faster??


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