Back~

kinda dragging it... haiz... yes finally i m back home... got home at about 2plus slept n slept n slept... quite fun voer there.. no 1 to call u no1 to disturb u at all~ omg so relaxed, i think i ate too much mayb gained weight le... whe i m stressed i dun eat much i guess... so now kinda feel better after 3 days but too bad i m going back to work in12 hrs time... kinda dread it but also kinda miss my colleagues...

when i didnt buy much this time round... not really much that i fancy except for those that u can actually get it here... things fr topshop blah blah blah... walked alot of over mayb those thigh muscles r showing now... lolz... i actually went to their cpk (if u know what it is) its so cheap over there omg... too bad i couldnt stomach more... arg.... now my mind is all about travelling, pls dun get me back to reality... yet.....

FinAlLy~

hahaha finally its the last day of my attachment thing~ time for me to relax n sleep later into the day... n thankfully i m getting my break... time for me to go somewhere where no1 can locate me... break away from all the stress that i have been getting here... arg........ refresh n come back for more battle?? i dunnoe... all this stress from the ppl around me is killing me... help!! everytime i try to control my temper some1 would try to make it boil~ what the heck! dun wanna start with all the **** again, coz i tot its the end of the week finally... get some rest, n soon i can go back to work peacefully... but sigh....

right now, i shant think of anything else juz break free fr whatever's here n concentrate on my short trip... if ya r frenz pray tat i enjoy my trip, ppl who dislike me n r reading this... whatever~

mY tYpiCaL dAy~

been in the hospital for the 3rd day le.. starting to smell alittle of all the 'clean' smell.. u know tat kinda hospital smell... i put on tat white coat of minen every patient in the hospital think u r an experienced doctor if not at least a trainee.. somehow ppl give ya alittle more respect.. (mayb i m starting to halucinate) but i dun really fit inside this hospital setting, every1 there is nice make sure tat u arent cold, hungry or anything.. mayb its juz the hours tat i have to suffer fr 8.30 in the morning to like 5.30pm... omg u have to climb up so EARLY n even though i stay so near, i cant stand it!! i m juz lazy wanna sleep alittle later n go to bed at a later time... night life yeah~~

well, today went out with 1 of my best pals to holland v. long time since i met her, she is the 1 ho nv fails to bring me back to earth after 'dreaming' for some time, she juz have this capability to pull me back down n let me realise somethings r lidat... we can chat alot n go on n on, if only time can stop for us to catch up together.. i m glad tat we make an effort to meet up despite our tight schedule, sorry gal but i muz say u nv fail to amaze me with ya ideas... haha... oops sorry every1 has to know, but whatever... u can take ya revenge some other day... this gal fren of mine is wonderful, she has this political side of her tat i have nv realised till today.. in a way she can b determined to do things tat she enjoy n make most out of her 'peak'... she wanna improve on her writing to get into some international relationship course in some faraway country... honestly i dun wan her to go coz i know i will miz her plenty but frenz shouldnt b selfish as every1 shld pursue whatever they dream... but anyway, whatever she does i know she will suceed coz she has this kinda +ve energy to make it work...

ConTracDiCtoRy

hmm... wonder hu posted those comments fr e previous entry dare to publish dun dare to tell me hu u r?! if u dun dare to let others view email me k?! juz wanna know which kind-hearted soul so concerned for me or i shld say the old us?! i m not trying to b sarcastic but juz wanna know... better tell me k.. (trying to b threatening liaoz...)

yah i noe my blog is terrible no pix, not organised, lack of info blah blah blah... but honestly i dunno how to... some1 pls teach me!! wanna load pix but i cant!! email me or something k... recently still have abit of free time at home to log on almost everyday update every1 about my life n listen to my blah blah blah... kinda addictive but i dunno mayb soon ya will see it updated less often... u see i like fresh ideas dun like routine things... in a way its xi xing yan jiu if thats correct... dun care wad others think ya can juz continue to read on...

i dunno if i potray a 'wrong' image to ppl around me? its weird, life has the craziest plans installed for u.. i used to think i m ready to settle down but after so long i guess i cant, or mayb i haven met the 1 yet.. soon my life would b proceeding forward to another stage.. whereby i would b out there meeting more ppl, b it my patients, acquaintances, true frenz or even more passers-by... always thought that i m mature liaoz but after taking a 'test' last night it revealed tat my mental age was only 17 though i m physically 2 yrs older.. not tat the age part matters, but mentally i guess..

not sure if it is juz me, my actions, or my words tat cause alot of misunderstanding? is it always tat after a couple break up 1 would always find companionship? mayb things in life is juz so coincidental?? in the first place i dun feel lonely at all.. haiz... whatever i say probably would change anything... what's the point in dwelling on it more?! in life u get some n u definitely will miss some... i made my mistakes b4, regretted them so much till no longer do i think about it anymore... missed the past n now moving onto the future.. dun wan ppl to worry for me, coz i can live with it, there's nothing which i cant conquer... dun wanna say much coz the more i say the more wrong i would have done.. but yet if i dun voice out there's also misunderstanding too... how contradicting life can get.. ahhh............

how i wish i can juz get away~~ break me free from all these........... mayb let me b alone forever...


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caseytheheartbreaker

My BoRiNg DaY~

came back from work at around 9.30... kinda rotting my time away now.. this morning so silly eating chewing gum which my colleague got from m'sia chew chew so happy den suddenly swallowed the entire thing... so disgusting man... got a disturbing feeling in my throat the entire day... so scared tat if i fall aslp later den i cant wake up anymore... so scary... its like something stuck in ya throat n may block the air passage or something... i know lar quite impossible coz its 2 different ways like i didnt have common sense...

sooooooooo pissed off by the customer service guy... dun ever call the HSBC for authorisation code if possible... trust me u dun even wanna talk to him... so d*m* rude.. miki didnt have the hsbc bank merchant code or i asked if another bank's merchant code could work n he actually sneered at me by telling me "if ya customer's card is an amex and u call visa when things cock up do u think it work?" tat guy is juz so MEAN!! pissed me off so i slammed my phone on him... regret not asking for his idiotic name to give him my piece of mind... i mean what can u expect from some1 who doesnt know anything about merchant code, customer's card which need authorisation blah blah blah n all the nonsense?! So IDIOTIC!! if i ever get hold of his name, i make sure he hears me scream... lose his job or something... i dun owe him anything at all... mayb he would get banged by a car n end up in the hospital after work... lolz (so mean of me, but i dun care, he's worse off) who can stand customer service who doesnt even try to sevice u at all, no manners, n probably f**ked up... not at i wanna curse him...

didnt do anything much today, kept having idiotic people today... there's this stupid 'regular' customer who came in wanting to change his spec lenses.. checked his eyes liaoz.. talk about the price of the lenses... keep insisting tat we increase the price for no reason, the usual price was $470 n he paid only $360, wad a steal man...) now due change of management have to control price, juz top up a little more n still can get the same product keep insisting his own price... what is a mere $30 when he is carrying a LV!! omg.. this kinda customer kick his arse also not enuff... haha.. after he stepped out of the shop my colleague cursed, half of his foot is already in the coffin, mayb he wun even have chance to pick up the spectacles at all... mean but i like it... cust always take things for granted, dun understand our situation n juz demand di$count... the most maddening thing is when my operation manager agreed to let me pay the price tat he paid previously.... life juz isnt fair...

woah its late liaoz... later 8.15 still have to report at alexandra hospital, confirm not enuff sleep ar... omg how m i supposed to stay awake?? gtg Zzzzzzzzzz... hope tat i dun get choked or there wun b any more blog to read from me~~ haa...


still...
caseytheheartbreaker

it's weird... every time i make a decision some1 would b there 2 make me regret it.. certain things would nv b clear-cut, no1 gives u a chance to explain n everything... intially i thought all this blogging is gotta make me feel better as i voice out but somehow it has created so many misunderstanding etc... it allowed so many ppl to mistake things... mayb this would b the last post ya shall see..

i think i m a v hard-hearted person n i dun give second chances.. to add on, i dun really listen to opinions which i dun wanna hear.. my character has been moulded till i dun easily accept ppl's ideas.. so self-centred right?? much as i wanna give in, i dun really know how, my dignity comes before anything.. i can let go of anything except tat, juz like a male's ego.. wo shi da nu ren i wun deny that at all.. i used to b mean n i guess i haven changed at all den... but honestly i dun care... coz if ya opinion of me is negative, i wun even try to change it... thus luv me or hate me...

i dun like to harp on the past, i made alot of mistakes b4, ever since my sec sch days... at 13, still a stupid gal who cant tell who's nice or not blah blah blah... 6 yrs down the road, met alot of new ppl n had alot of new experiences.. for those, that i have taken 4 granted, i apologised (sincerely) for those who have loved me n i didnt return ya luv, i m still sorry.. for those who i have luved but didnt luv me back i m still grateful for everything... for every1 contributed to part of my life memories happy or sad... i came across this phrase recently as i was reading ( DUN b shocked, yes i read!! )

Giving some1 ya luv isnt an assurance tt they'll luv u back. dun expect luv in return; juz wait for it to grow in their heart; but if it doesnt, be content it grew in yours.

From puppy luv to some1 who i really tried to luv, not only i grew up, ppl around me grew... if u r reading u know who u r.. if i wasnt so daring in the past, i would b a different me now.. probably.. no1 can bring back the past, i cant n i shouldnt too.. every1 gotta learn to move on in life, coz everything continues whether it rains or shine, b it ya mood or the weather outside.. yes, i have missed certain things in life, like i didnt know how to appreciate some ppl in the past or even now...

i guess its enuff of my blah blah blah for the day... gotta bathe n head for my work now, or i m gotta b late, but honestly it doesnt matter coz i m a measly paid semi-optom... cant wait for my license though, then hahaha... i know it's juz a piece of lousy paper that costs $180!! but that's how it goes... whatever at least then i wun b paid measly! Y cant March come faster??


caseytheheartbreaker