gotta lose 'it' soon

dunno what i gotta do this time... starting to lose things, losing grip, losing control... actually i had a nice time last night till i got the call.. the call that ruined my whole night... oedematous eyes now omg!! how can i get to work like this!! that's not the main point... mayb the next thing i gotta start losing again is myself... mayb from the start the entire thing was jus a dream... i think it's time to wake up b4 i realli lose myself......