pls leave me

this is what i wanna say to u... i mean it all... perhaps this is what u want too...

離開我

我把你的電話從手機裡消除了
我把你的消息從話題裡減少了
我把你的味道用香水噴掉了
我把你的照片用全家福擋住了

你讓我的懂事變成一種幼稚
你讓我的驕傲覺得很無知
你讓我的朋友關心我的生活
你讓我的軟弱陪伴你的自由

離開我 你會不會好一點
離開你 什麼事都難一點
車來了 坐上你的明天
車走了 我還站在路邊
離開我 你會不會好一點
離開你 什麼事都難一點
風來了 雲就會少一點
你走了 我住在雨裡面

time goes on..

i think mood swings r getting to me recently... have no idea why it has gotta b lidat?! every1 thinks that women r more prone to things lidat n everything else! well things like the above, poorer spatial freq when they drive, slower reaction even when falling, poorer stamina n the list juz goes on... but whatever, coz i think all the above stated represent me plenty... heez mayb they juz refer to me n me alone... guys out there trust me dun underestimate woman n definitely dun despise them, coz i shall for once prove it! i arent bimbo-tic though i know i arent that beautiful but the truth will b revealed!

being in the jap company is all that good but neither is it bad... at times i doubt myself if i m actually that capable afterall.. still v much a newbie in everything... but nevertheless i think it's show-time....

more wishes

My updated wishlist

1. a new handphone!!
2. canon digi cam
3. some nice skin-clearing cream
4. new maybeline glossy lipstick
5. vouchers for monthly massage
6. foot scsrub from body shop
7. hair cut n colour maybe
8. more n more clothes fr gss!!

bad bad day

today started off badly... 1stly i left home late by two minutes, kinda like missed the bus n hesitating if i shld take the cab?! den deciding to save some of my precious pay, i took the bus... what a bad decision-- i was late by a minute! omg... that's the worst thing.. its not like u r late by ten minutes, but by 1 minute!! the feelings sucked.. n to add on, i was wearing a tube dress w/ some white flowery patterns n i was told that i wasnt suppose to have any prints on the skirts?! wth... i tried to get over it by i guess it took me time... den of no reason, my boss n OM came n that was it... i arent sure if they missed the prints or they r trying to get a chance of pin-poniting my patterned skirt... sigh that sure was a bad day... at some point i begin to ponder if i was suited for this company...

due to my fowl mood, my wonderful 'bro' treated me to genki sushi! hehe... eating sure helps to relieve all this nonsensical 'stress'... mayb its time for me to let myself b relaxed... off for my foot spa...

all the mess

all bcoz of my itchy hands i tried changing my blogskin... n den i lost my sitemeter n i dunno how to get it back?! wth... i feel like an idiot! cant stand it i have decided to give up attempts to alter them...


the night b4, i promised to go swimming to attempt to maintain my weight, but of all days it had to rain this morning!! omg.. all my attempts to exercise was gone! (i bet every1 thinks that this is a big excuse!!) but whatever... last night i thought i totally got rid of the headache n was gloating over it... n then my backache came back! omg...

its still a puzzle

i seriously think that i m a computer-idiot!! i was taught to go to blogskin.com to get free blogskin but once i enter the webbie i was told to download.... n the prob now is how the hell do i upload them into blogger??

very puzzled........

lost?!

days has passed
i have yet to see you
my heart beats so fast
everytime i think of you

i miss you like crazy
but you don't even realise
starting to doubt my status
does your heart even hold me?

days has passed
i have yet to hold you
my heart beat is slowing
to make sure i m still sensible

cross my heart as i say
i need you in my life
or else i m juz another gal
another gal who is lost in this city

help~

does any1 have any idea whereby i can do something about my blog? like adding nice cursor changing colours etc.. drop me a mail?

still the same!

still feeling groggy today... experiencing the same headache like yesterday, juz slightly milder... seriously hope it goes away by tomorrow otherwise i dunno what i gotta do... going to lose all my hair out soon if it continues..

i dun wan life to bcome a routine, i need excitment... juz let something happen!

2nd day of work

i cant believe it! the second day of work n i have alreadi fallen sick! well... actually i didnt even notice it myself... was boarding the bus this morning feeling a v groggy head... didnt think much of it n thought it was the contact lens prescription giving me troubles.... but it was affecting all the time, i didnt think it was my temperature rising till my colleague offered to give my shoulders a rub... it was den that i actually felt my own forehead... it was somewhat warm... hmm... mayb i shld b resting... kinda starting to halucinate.........

back~

dunno what i shld say... blogging is fun when i put my tots up here... but i guess that means that everything will b revealed... everything will be known to every1!! omg... wun have any idea that who reads this but honestly.. WTH, i dun realli care..

juz arrived in singapore at 6.30 this morning.. so cold n quiet at the airport... so happy!! went for my long-planned holiday.. though arriving there on the 1st day, the beach didnt appeal to me as what my colleagues has described but upon a second look, it was still on the positive side... initially expecting a v fine whitish sandy beach, but its more like the brownish, coarse beach w/ plenty of seaweed(if i may call it that)... the resort was like on the more ulu side and have to walk a long distance b4 we could reach the main road... i think we simply looked out of place in philippines coz we kana 'tok' by the locals so many times... our dinner was 'toked'! imagine the amount summing up to 150% of the actual amount juz bcoz the driver brought us there(i was his frenz restaurant apparently!) n the driver also gave us a tourist price for the ride... but fortunately, he brought us to his 'other' frenz place who was a dive master... n we arranged for me to get my padi licence! yeah!!

on the last dive of my trip(juz after i was pronounced a licensed diver) i wanted to get into the water so much... to b able to b actually looking at the underwater stuff as a person who passed.. but i didnt know what happened, mayb it was the lunch that i took an hour b4 the dive, it made me lethargic underwater n i couldnt control the level that i was at n to add on i was the last at the back, abit panicky... struggled to keep up w/ the rest... suddenly i juz felt the sea water getting into my mouth... n i have the worst response... i panicked literally... so much that i couldnt even think of getting my second 'octopus' n i wanted to scream for help in the water!! at that moment i realised that i was so easy to lose my life juz there...




3 hours to reporting for my 1st day of work... :( no more fun...

2 more hours~

going to leave my hse in exactly 2 hours time... taking the train to the airport... long time since i have been there, the last time was when i drove my aunt to the airport when she departed for japan..

now the weather outside is so dark, so cloudy... it's gotta rain anytime now.. oh no! pray that the weather @ philippines is gotta b much sunnier than here... but 1 thing for such is that the temperature is higher over there... pls pray that i dun get sunstroke or anything like that.. being in the tip-top condition makes it so much more exciting...

juz 1 more day

hmm.. went for work as usual yesterday.. excitedly went to buy the aloe vera gel to make sure i get cooled down... kinda excited that i cant believe i m leaving tml!! packed my stuff n everything alreadi juz waiting for time to pass...

anyway dropped by 1 fullerton for dinner with my x-colleague cum big bro. black angus serves nice food, big lobster feet (if i could call that), nice scallops etc etc... juz that the nice choco brownie is big but slightly over-sized for two... mayb the vanilla ice-cream is too little making it soooooooooo sweet... but anyway having dinner there is overall pleasant.. i cant imagine what marina south is going to come up with but its gotta kinda destroy the view over there... enjoy while i can if i ever do drop by again... will probably make it for lunch so that i can try their over-sized burgers! somehow i sound like a pig...

my shopping trip~

omg~ ms lala bought me the notebook fr taka juz now... we were juz looking around the nice booklets, i was thinking of getting 1 for myself as i picked one out... den she claimed that she was going to buy that for me!! thx gal! luv it lots gotta start writing in it in a while...

anyway, didnt buy the bikini that i thought i would b able to get, but managed to get a pair of lovely pink earrings, used up my vouchers fr my bday...

some of my favs

My Fav ~

~ watch
my titus and fossil n dkny

~ clothes
i get them everywhere but osomose aren’t bad raoul is a new fav

~ sleepwear
my La senza

~ wallet
Gucci

~ handphone
my Samsung n panasonic

~ nail polish colour
baby pink

~ hair colour
ideally black w/ streaks of purple, but realistically brown

~ hobby
go swimming n tanning n traveling!!

~ hairstylist
Patrick

~ hang-out place
Fullerton lounge n my bedroom

~ travelling destination
I wanna go Maldives!!

~ jewellery
rings! n necklaces, I dun mind bracelets too~ heez

~ restaurant
Spageddies! I simply adore their food

~ phrase
There’s so many of my fav phrases “heng fan”, “neh”, “orh, orh, okie”

~ song
chuang wai n ji de

~ dream
To have enough $$ to do whatever I wan at any time

its mon again, fortunately no more blues

hehe, its my off day today!! stil abit of the edematous lids n everything coz i didnt get optrex yesterday (oops, gotta get scolding for not using it!) but at least the aperture appears bigger! gotta go shopping later w/ miss lala!! yeah... long time since i met her, she got all her exams n trip to hk b4 she has time for me!! omg~~ cant believe she didnt get me anything fr hk?! so disappointing~~ nahz... as if its her gifts that count... i shld have went w/ her on the trip n explore hk.. but anyway gotta enjoy my last minute shopping for the necessities that i will need...

wow~ its
3 days to leaving!! (getting all excited alreadi)

edematous eyes but still doing it

>who<

-makes u smile
my funnie frenz, funnie colleagues

-pays your cellphone bills
myself

-do you think loves you
i hope its every1!

-do you want to slap for this moment
that jerk

-is the first on your phonebook
home

>what<

-U don't like about in this life
nv having enough $$ to use

-do you want to do right now
get something to remove my edematous eyes n to leave for philippines

-is it that makes u smile
my other's humour

-bothers you
when i m not in tip-top condition n i cant function properly

-do you like in your house
my bed w/ all my things

>when<

-is your birthday
4 apr, now where is the present that u owe me?!

-did you last saw ur school
long long time ago

-will you get serious with your life?
when i gotta settle down

-do you think will there be peace
i dun think there will b

-did you do your last prank?
erm.. i arent much of a prankster

>where<

-do you live
west coast

-is your school located
no more sch for me!!

-do you hang-out the most
fullerton's lounge, raffles lounge, hoping to go equinox again

-were you born
gleneagles

-are you now
my living rm

>how<

-would u define love
supposed to b fun n happy but right now its painful n hurting

-do u want ur burial to be
i dun wanna b buried, juz burn me n throw my ashes into the river

-freaky can you get
i arent freaky

-often do you listen to music
all the time i cantlive w/o it

-do you live your life?
try to live w/o regrets but i dun think that's possible anymore...

-interesting are you?
i arent interesting so dun read if u dun wan to...

my poor eyes

i dunno what's wrong lately.... i keep waking up to an edematous left eye!! today is the worst of so many days... wonder how to face my customers later?! gotta put on my new glasses to cover up the puffy lids.. i hope no1 will notice it though...

the gals r leaving for batam this morning n its raining so heavily now, bet the ferry ride is gotta b so rocky.... hope they r fine... wished i could join them too. but fortunately i didnt coz its gotta crash w/ my plans for philippines!! which missing this trip is a blessing in disguise... haha

4 more days to leaving for my trip!! (its getting closer)

hmm... went fullerton last night... hehe back there again!! the lounge is simply great! too bad last night there was a private function at my favourite spot... :( had my all-time fav drink all the same... hmmm. still the same wonderful taste.. haha, lolvely red-coloured liquid... sometimes i wonder y do i luv it so much?! didnt do much juz sat there n enjoyed the ambience, i could see the ppl in the tiny room dancing the night away.. fortunately it was a private party otherwise i think i would b so tempted to join them... hmmm. mayb its time that i visited one night stand... but b4 that its time for opening my own bottle w/ my new opener!!

7 days to leaving for my holiday!!
11 days to starting work...

all the pain~

[1] what's your name ?
casey

[2] how old are you ?
i hit the big 20 alreadi

[3] which skool are you from?
i stopped regarding myself fr sp

[4] when is your birthday ?
4 apr -- thosewho forget better get something for me now!!

[5] status ?
i have no idea

DO YOU??
[6] smoke ?
catch me doing that n u will strike lottery

[7] drink ?
all the time

[8] cry when you are jealous ?
used to in the past, but there's nothing that realli get me jealous now

[9] hurt yourself when you felt you hurt ur loved one?
my heart shatters

[10] hate yourself ?
mayb i do

FAVOURITE??
[11] type of stead ?
u can actually choose the characteristics??

[12] food ?
abit into salads w/ italian dressing recently

[13] place ?
fullerton cafe, equinox

[14] tv show ?
desperate housewife

[15] song ?
jie shou

[16] movie ?
arent realli into movies coz i always forget whatever i watch n the prices r up!!

[17] season ?
summer!! time to go tanning, heck w/ freckles n skin cancer

[18] ice cream flavour ?
choco chip, cookies n cream, macademian nuts!! go crazy

PREFER??
[19] sylvester or taufik?
get them out of my sight

[20] coffee or tea ?
tea to start my day, coffee to keep me awake

[21] pink or blue ?
pink always

[22] single or attached ?
this is a tough 1

[23] best fren or stead ?
i choose both

HAVE YOU EVER??
[24] hug?
yes

[25] how many diff ppl have you kissed ?
sensitive issue

[26] love someone till you don't mind dying for him?
nah, but i donate my organs if necessary

[27] showed attitude to your stead?
used to do that to my x

[28] run away from home ?
nv thought of that, my mum gives me alot of freedom

*WHO IS??
[29] the last person you called ?
him

[30] the last person who called you ?
him -- n i hate whatever we said

[31] your last stead ?
let's leave this a blank

[32] the stead you love most ?
the next 1?! shouldnt it b lidat??

[33] who are the pple who can always cheer you up?
my funnie colleagues, frenz -- basically i try to make myself luff out loud

ASK YOURSELF??
[34] how's your life nowadays ?
dun feel that gd

[35] what's in your mind right now ?
the issue

[36] who annoys you the most ?
him n the ppl in the issue

[37] what do you think about your love life right now?
in a mess

[38] who's your favourite person to crap with ?
my funnie colleagues

[39] will you survive without love?
if i m forced to

[40] what makes you happy ?
to resolve the issue n if there's a happily everafter

[41] will it be a problem to you for having a very big crush on someone ?
i dun have a crush

[42] do u fall in love with someone easily ?
depends, if i m alreadi w/ some1 nope

[43] do you really really love someone now ?
otherwise it doesnt hurt

[44] what do u wanna tell him now ?
pls take my pain away

[45] what are your last words ?
face it n take the pain away

gotta lose 'it' soon

dunno what i gotta do this time... starting to lose things, losing grip, losing control... actually i had a nice time last night till i got the call.. the call that ruined my whole night... oedematous eyes now omg!! how can i get to work like this!! that's not the main point... mayb the next thing i gotta start losing again is myself... mayb from the start the entire thing was jus a dream... i think it's time to wake up b4 i realli lose myself......

labour day

so much for all the 'nonsense' that i have put up for the past few dats, muz b boring having to read that all... cant wait for results to b out so i can apply for my license but yet i miss sch days... nothing much to look forward these days except for my philippines trip!! hahaha... starting to buy things that i may need for the trip le... planning well ahead coz i only have off on mondays till i leace.. so that's only 2 days for serious shopping... not that i need alot of stuff basically slippers, shorts, facial products to make sure my face wun b that burnt for my 1st day at work blah blah blah...

nothing realli interesting these few days so too bad nothing realli much to see haha, haven been drinking see so healthy!! keeping my kidneys n liver idle so i can have better stamina while i swim... hahaha

11 days to my trip!
2 weeks to reporting for work!!

still doing...

1.MOST favourite colour
pink

2. MOST favourite month
apr

3. MOST favourite day
i try to make it everday, but mostly pay-day

4. MOST favourite horoscope
aries

5. MOST favourite alphabet
s

6. MOST favourite number
4

7. MOST favourite subject
used to b maths

8. MOST favourite planet
earth, coz i live here

9. Most favourite season
summer so i can go tanning, heck w/ skin cancer

10. Favourite teacher
nah

11. Most favourite fruit
watermelon n mango

12. Most favourite TV channel
channel 8 n u

13. Most favourite time
time when i go out on my off day

14. MOST favourite name?
yin

15. MOST favourite Computer Game
next qn pls

16. MOST favourite Tea
chiled green tea w/o ice pls

17. MOST favourite Country
for now its philippines

18. MOST favourite Song
cant think of 1

19. MOST favourite Singer
fish leong-- for now

20. MOST favourite Language
trying out jap for now

21. MOST favourite Sports
swimming!!

22. MOST favourite Ice cream Flavour
cookies n cream, but throw me anything n i will still eat except for garlic flavour

23. MOST favourite Fast food restaurant
mac, kfc, mos, bk, long john, yoshinoya, throw me any of these i will eat, except for broccoli!!

24. MOST favourite pen
mount blanc

25. MOST favourite Font
verdana

26. MOST favourite Animal
doggie mayb?!

27. MOST favourite Cartoon
tom n jerry-- we watch that during clinic

28. MOST favourite Movies
xia ri mo mo cha

29. MOST favourite Male actor
dunno

30. MOST favourite female actress
sammi cheng

31. MOST favourite book
kanski -- i arent kidding

32. MOST favourite brand [shoes]
aldo -- lovely heels

33. MOST favourite brand [watch]
gucci

34. MOST favourite Radio station
93.3

35. MOST favourite Cafe
plenty -- but for now its the 1 at fullerton if that can b considered a cafe

36. MOST favourite SERIES
??

37. MOST fav hobby?
falling into a daze

38. MOST fav house?
my hubby's hse la

39. MOST favourite phrase?
so many!! mayb 'heng fan'

40. MOST favourite Car
mazda 6 n merc

41. MOST fav. nick?
caseytheheartbreaker

42. MOST favourite handphone brand?
samsung, panasonic

43. MOST favourite Flower?
can i have 3? roses, tulips n lilies