freaking day

its irritating.. couldnt get anything right today. was supposed to count something, but i assumed it was done n left it alone. den i realised it was not updated n kana stared! omg.. shitty lei. den like got something covering my eyes missed out 2 boxes of contact lenses, which was apparently in a big transparent box. made every1 look high n low for me. omg! i cant believe how much better it could have gone.


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i wish for silence to fill the room
to seek the isolation i need
i wish for isolation
to bring my thoughts out
i wish for my thoughts
to make me alive
i wish for life
to bring me love
i wish for love
to fill my heart

argh... stock-take tml!

its so tiring to tolerate a splitting h/a at certain part of the day. i couldnt concentrate on my work at all. its like i was trying to listen to some instructions fr my in-charge, but my mind was elsewhere -- where the pain is. things screw up at work n i forgot certain things blah blah.. omg! tml's stock-take n i gotta die!! die fr the falling hundreds boxes of contact lenses. they gotta fall fr the shelf n make me lost in the mountain of boxes.

pls dun let me dream of cotact lenses racing after me or some contact lens solution being sprayed at me like a water hose. get them all OUT OF MY SIGHT!

i m realli anticipating:
14 more days to the sunny island

it's so gloomy....

feeling pissed off suddenly. my head's throbbing n my forehead is burning. so much of urban fatigue n illnesses catching up with me.

woke up to with a burning forehead, splitting h/a again (as usual)... pretty restless though i did sleep the night before, feeling sleepy though i didnt take the medication. i didnt understand y i went to the doc either. juz to see if my diagnosis was right?! heh, damn sure i was right! even the management was exactly the same. drink more water, rest early blah blah blah... fortunately i wasnt paying for that. mayb i shall aspire to become a GP den i can recite the same thing to my px! so much for jokes.

well, if i have been grumpy while answering the phonecall or ignoring ya msg or msg-ing u nonsense, its juz the sick feeling i get in my head, i cant function properly, n i cant realli remember what i say at times. juz pardon me k?!

gotta take my temp again, i think its hitting 40..


still not forgetting,
15 more days to the sunny island

evil creatures

yes.. that's my arm... i can't believe i got them all over my arms n legs!! all the evil mosquitoes @ ubin. omg!

shrinking numbers

humph. poorer by a few hundred dollars alreadi. n that's even b4 i pay for my diving trip!! omg...

yah, i gave my dad the money for partial payment of the car, to think my dad took the money without even blinking (excluding the fact that he counted the number of notes in his hands) that's my dad, no doubt abt it. alright, he isnt a miser but he teaches us (me n my bro) to earn the money n not get them fr his pocket. he grew up in a not-at-all-well-to-do family n he saved his way to pay for uni fees by himself. now he's set an example for me to follow n earn my way to pay for uni fees too.. when i was young, i always hate the fact that he wouldnt give me $$ as n when i wanted. but as i grow, i realised the harsh reality that having to let ya savings grow isnt easy (not to mention having to pay ya way thru uni)

its saddening to see my bank account numbers shrinking, but if that helps my dad, i guess that the minimal that i can do. so that's less shopping sprees for me!! actually i was thinking of buying a digi cam to bring for my trip, but the car installments vanishes that thought. but nvm.

*yes i m yearning to drive that car* make oct come fast pls...

n did i forget to mention, i m down with a splitting h/a. apparently the doc claimed that i m too stressed out by work. -which is kinda true- heh. not feeling great recently. my forehead is kinda burning, hallucinating away already. mayb i wun b able to recognise some faces alreadi.. beginning to lose my memory. oh dear.


but something that havent slipped my mind, counting down:
17 days more to the sunny island :)

DUN even think abt it

i wish for time to stop right there
but somehow it didnt
e magical moment is gone
nothing else to await

except for the trip i'm anticipating
n if u r thinking...

-- DUN try to turn off my oxygen tank --

it's confirmed

oh yes... my dad juz signed on e papers this morning... its a red corolla..

the car model was an easy decision. toyota cars have a relatively good engine. n its v much more silent compared to a kia or hyundai.

the only prob would b the debt that is incurring but i guess my dad kinda worked it out already, juz to continue owing the bank more $$!!

n the last thing is the COLUR of the car!!
too bad they only have 6 options:
1. white
2. silver
3. champane gold
4. deep red (not maroon)
5. metallic blue
6. boring black

my family of 4 decided that white is confirmed not an option,
i hate silver cars coz they remind me of those that u find @ BBDC,
last night, my mum already hinted that she dun like option 3,
metallic blue is not really appealing,
black is juz too warm n high-maintenance

so.......
the only possibility left is to --
choose RED!!

the sad thing is that the car will only b arriving around oct if its early. juz much for yearning for the car keys n touch of the NEW car!! n to add on, i need to pay for the installments!!

omg... kill me if i leave for a shopping spree again!!
-- juz remind me that i NEED to pay for the car--

hyundai? forget abt it

went to hyundai's showroom this morning w/ my dad.

zoomed in immediately to look @ e matrix. its a spacious car considering that its a 1.6L, i can transport my tv without any prob. there's quite abit of compartments that impressed me except for the sunglass compartment. i mean who thought of doing a space @ the bottom of the passenger seat to put ya shoes? i certainly didnt. apparently the salesman mentioned that the side doors have impact absorption thingy. but honestly which car manufacturer dun do that now? anything that shocked me totally is the fact that that model DO NOT have an airbag!! omg. isnt that crazy?! the sales man still have the cheek to say that driving at below 100km/h in singapore wun need an airbag coz it would b activated. he rant on abt his fren who got hurt by an airbag when he went over a hump in the carpark.. like it my biz. coz the fact is i dun think any1 would NOT travel more than 100km/h esp when u r on the highway. n not to mention in malaysia.

basically my i wasnt impressed at all. so much for a car that cost $49 999.

honestly, i rather pay $10 000 more for 2 airbags to save my life.

stop spamming

for the idiots who have been spamming... i m warning u.. STOP spamming around my blog!! i m giving u a chance coz i simply deleted ya 'comments'. DUN let me see any1 of ya tricks around here anymore. or i shall definitely take action!

work, eat n enjoy...

had a quiet but short day yesterday. not much crowd in e shop but a pile of shit waiting for me to clear up. forever. but i enjoy doing that. i guess thats better den sitting around n doing nothing. life is like a vicious cycle, u work 1st den u enjoy n wait till it starts piling up n u slough hard again.

yesterday cleared up some long-standing pile of chart n left early to catch a movie. oh boy, was i disappointed with it. bewitched isnt that fantastic afterall. kinda dumb n pretty lame. n most importantly it wasnt as funny as i thought it was. should have watched wedding crashers instead. so much for the free tix. but b4 that, went for dinner @ spags. somehow i find that e quality is dropping. not as scrumptous as i thought it was anymore. probably bcoz the chefs that i know arent working there anymore. kinda saddening. i used to luv their spagetti so much that i could eat it everday n not get sick of it. though i requested for medium rare, e tenderloin was too charred on the outside with e insides still reddish. what a pity. perhaps i should juz went for steak elsewhere. :(

e rest of e night is juz blah. nothing much. just managed to crawl into bed by 2 n catch some Zzzzz b4 waking up at 0745 to prepare myself for my meeting. dragged myself out of bed, somehow jus pushed my contact lenses into my edematous eyes n omg 0900 i m still at home!! i gotta b late!! n my boss is chairing e meeting today!! on e verge of cursing but whatever, he cant deduct my pay juz bcoz i m late for his meeting. even if he really does that, so be it! i mean what can i say -- he's the BOSS! as long as my leave isnt affected next month, i dont really care!

i m juz v determined to dive next month n nothing is gotta stop me. not even my backache...

date set

after so much hiccups, e date is finally set. so much for fooling around with my anger threshold.

i wasnt in e best of mood these few days -- no thanks to eating e evening primose pills. they were supposed to help ease discomfort n regulate female hormones but it apparently didnt help me. its crazy but i nearly bark at every1 w/i a radius of 2m. mayb my on-off flu/cold contributed to my irritated mood.

perhaps its a form of excuse to answer for my crazy mood swings but whatever.

but to e date. hmm. shld b leaving on 13 provided there's no unpredicted changes.
e venue isnt set yet coz e same fella cannot decide or mayb juz decided not to let me know 1st to prevent further yelling fr me.. lolx. whatever it is, i promise to cease my screams, juz stop changing dates k!

brillant breakfast

went to crystal jade for dim sum breakfast this morning. looking forward to it since saturday. been some time since i had dim sum (excluding e grad day when i met some of 4 of e loudest ten @ yum cha) i dared to indulge @ crystal jade this morning coz i heard -- no matter how much u eat for breakfast it doesnt matter coz e calories get burned off later in e day. to an extent its quite true, coz i eat but how much realli can i stuff it down my throat right?!


i was kinda disappointed this morning, due to a few factors:

1. there was a queue @ crystal jade (1st time i m joining such a queue)
2. e queue was bcoz they refuse to open e 2nd level for diners
3. i had to wait for 15 mins for breakfast -- hungry ppl arent nice ppl
4. they sat me @ e table n refused to gimme a menu - though i kinda know what i wanna order
5. they missed my order of 'cha siew bao' (pork buns)
6. they didnt realise they missed out egg tarts too
7. e fish in e porridge was not v cooked thoroughly
8. they didnt top up e hot water in my teapot n i was yearning for water
9. e skin of e 'fun cheong' (stuffed rice rolls) was terrible so 'flour-y'
10. e service was not fantastic at all, we were ignored twice n even had to walk to e counter to ask them to bring e bill!!

overall, if u ask me i rather pay a bit more n go to 'yum cha' n enjoy greater service n better -tasting food... more authentic to me n definitely more sophisticated atmosphere - with those 'classical' music n those 'cheong-sam' - like uniform.

their service is better coz they have those little gadets on e table for u to press like:
1. service
2. order
3. water
4. bill etc....

get e idea?! i know abit like 'sua-gu' but e first time i saw it was at fisherman village @ 1 of e restaurant.
its quite interesting but i honestly think e person who came up with this idea is either:

(a) some1 with short hands.
- coz when they raise their hands in e cafe/restaurant, no1 can see that they need help or service

(b) some lazy waiter
- who decided that he/she dun wanna keep going around e guest's table n rather sit near e counter n wait for ppl to pay $$ n pray for tips to go into their pocket!!

(c) some1 who pities ppl who fall in catergory (a)
- realised that they cant b seen n want to have good service for their guest esp when lights r dimmed down


sorry that i gotta mention this, but i kinda believe in bad karma, i arent blaming u who invented such things but its interesting to come up w/ such ideas, that's y i praised using point (c), pls dun curse me whoever u r, coz what goes round comes round. heh!


i have been enjoying eating so much recently that i m denying myself access to e weighing scale. i think i will juz go bogus if i ever do hit e big 5-0, mayb e news will b flooded with my face n e food that i consumed n warn e public not to eat that too!! but once i confirmed my trip i m going to cut down my calories n stop inviting me to breakfast/lunch/dinner!!

i m dead serious!

its the ghostly month

okie enough of admiring my pedicure... luv it lots still.... :) gorgeous maroon.....


haven been doing much recently... its e 7th month, i m scared of being alone at home... i arent kidding.. last sat, i was on afternoon shift... reached home at 11 plus, starving like mad but still v afraid of being alone in the hse.. no1 to accompany me, no1 to brighten up my hse n no1 to cook nice food for me....... (forget abt e salad diet that i mentioned earlier)

i arent afraid to own up that i m petrified of the unknown esp those that u shldnt b seeing under normal circumstances... i have a colleague who is able to see such things.. he sees them around in the workplace n they r able to set those 'ding-dong' senosors that r meant for detecting human when u enter shops... omg!! its gotta scare the hell out of me if i really saw it.... i arent kidding... *remember e white ghostly lady few months back*


pls dun frighten me with any of the antics, dun even try...


gott meet ms lala later for dinner, still thinking of where to eat... mayb spags(my fav), or mayb something else for a change -- jap food....

i think i m abusing my body... seriously destroying it...

i m stuck with a sore throat... i think its a throat infection which i use to get it all e time when i was in sceondary sch... in e past, it always hit e larynx which in turn makes me having to croack for at least 5 days... it didnt hurt in e past as i guess it was higher up in the vertical tube... i m glad this time round it didnt get to the voice-box but it realli hurt v much... e soreness is killing me.. e first 2 days i avoided oily, fried food like anything but it didnt help to recover faster, so in e end i took roast duck, pan-fried fish fillet, deep-fried chicken dices n wanton oh, wth........ mayb tml i will pile up on e milo that i have been missing so much... omg, realli damaging the temple....

i have no idea why mayb i shldnt b wearing focus n&d... or mayb i have been wearing lenses for way too many hours n way too often... as a result too much water have been retained in my eyes, everything is blur, my vision is so distorted esp with my lenses, changing them to dailies didnt help either... omg.... ppl will start to mock if they know what line m i in... even i feel ashamed of myself... i dun blame e consumers for not wanting to wear specs when their eyes dun feel well, i only mock at them for e fact they r not able to get nice glasses for themselves... what a shame if u r not willing to pay for them too n good luck if u continue to wear c/l n pray that u dun get ulcer... meanwhile i m also praying that my eyes will heal soon, coz i think my accom spasm is worsening, i cant clear images as fast as i used to... :(

n my stomach... almost everyday i wake up having a tummy-ache, not those that diahorrea kind but those gastrics-kind... mayb its e late supper meals or its juz e plain irregular meals... i am not sure.. probably a big hole in my tummy lining? i would count that out of my mind.....

my pedicure...

see my newly-done pedicure~~


i know its superficial going for a pedicure... but there's a reason behind me doing this (besides wasting my $$).......

i first learnt of a corn on my feet when i was abt 13, i always thought it had left my life after removing those corn-remover stickers that were availabe in the pharmcies.. but since a few months ago, they started to hurt me again... its back in action... omg.... so now i have no choice but to go for this monthly treatment... but honestly its a monthly induldge!!
it arent expensive but imagine every month having to throw away $25 to e nail salon...

12 X 25 = $300
thats a whopping three hundred dollars!!

so this time i tried to push my luck n go for 'treatment' only after 6 weeks instead of 4...
let me do the numbers of doing it every 6 weeks instead:

9 X 25 = $225

that's savings of
$300 - 225 = $75

but the result of attempting to save?
i had to endure pain for the past week fr normal daily walking (what to do i walk so much in my 'ballet' shoes) i grown this love for covered shores recently coz they r juz so lovely... i love them..... that's to compensate for me not having a barbie-doll face.... i m a woman, i luv having nice shoes n everything nice...

my life?

juz yesterday, i was so bored at work, so i decided to have my fortunes told...
i know i m superficial but i asked abt my life... here was the details...

there's short romances n my life (which is quite true), i dun hope for 'tao hua yun' i juz hope for happiness as it is

it traumatised me quite abit when i heard these... coz i know they r all so true.......

i m short-tempered, always thinking that i m right, insist on my ways blah blah blah....

omg... i sure m flabbergasted.. they r all so real........ there r some other details but i rather keep them inside my heart... coz i seriously think its too unbelievable, unbelievably close to the truth...

but there's another thing that i m v sure of, that is: fate lies in my hands