tears arent beautiful

i dunno if its good or bad... but once again, i can feel as if my tears were to flow... is it the 2nd or 3rd time? or is it the umpteen-th time? i realli cant remember...

it wasnt meant to be a challenge... it wasnt meant to be something bad... at a certain point i kinda cant get it... and the sadest thing is that u dun wanna explain it.. what can i do if the communication is only one way?

i'm holding back my tears...
u know my weakness... and i dun wan it to be pity or just to make me stop... i need you to understand and most imptly i wan to go thru this with u... but do u understand?