stupid gestures

so much have been happening for the past few weeks.. i dunno where to start from.. its quite sick to think abt it at times... i crack under stress, i hate myself for not being able to control my own temper.. its so frustrating to think abt it.. i hate it when i can so easily let go of this thing called 'temper' and voomed -- tadah... perhaps its the mull attitude coming out... loudness doesnt ans the question, it just makes it worse.. i realli wonder if i can do it at times... where has all the patience gone?! perhaps the following route is for me to practice the art of patience.. sometimes i think the closer the relationship is the more u take the person for granted.. raising your voice, getting alittle impatient etc... i luv the ppl around me, bb, my family and frenz but i hate it when they do silly things -- like instructing me on WHAT to do at that specific point of time, coz i simply cant tolerate that, it will be like the ultimate (coz even my mum dun do that!!) for goodness sake, if we r good frenz, pls DUN tell me what i dun wanna know