plenty of shit

sometimes i dunno if its me who did something wrong and this is the punishment.. i dun wan pity from ppl... but i seriously hate it... perhaps i've reaped too much bad karma and this is definitely worse den having 10kg of bad karma falling on u!!

i'm trying v hard to be strong with all these going on... must thank bb for being there with me.. i dunno how to go thru this shit without him.. thru-out this period if i ever raise my voice or show my discontent, i apologise for that... this is realli the worst patch in my life ever.. i dunno how to tell every1 abt this but when the time comes i think i might come up with a book for that.. all these filled with the nonsense that i'm giong thru now and let it be lessons that i'll tell my children when they grow up...

nv, nv trust strangers with your money... sometimes even your long-time frenz... coz it will cost you your everything...

i need all this shit to clear up after so much...

omg.. ulcers~

this is the 1st time in my life that i've got such bad ulcers... its on both side of my inner cheeks... at 1st it was only 4 ulcers.. 2 on each side.. den... dunno why it started to merge.. 4 moderate ulcers became 2 big BIG ulcers!! omg... n i haven noticed if my colleague didnt mention that my cheeks were all SWOLLEN!! can u imagine?!!

my face is not skinny in the 1st place and with my swollen cheeks it appears more FAT!! n i realli look super awful... its like super-fat casey!! although i slimmed down more than 3kg but my face is like super bloated (as if i've got water retention) den it makes me look as i've gained 3kg instead!! omg... i realli cant stand looking at myself in the mirror...

the next good/bad thing is that i cant chew realli well.. quite bad... i so wanna get away from all these..

rEsT DaY!!

went desaru today... had a dangerous route... missed one junction and almost didnt manage to get to go there... stopped by a ' fruit stall' n asked the auntie there... tanned and swimmed for a little while.. i like the fact that it quite quiet there and the ppl dun disturb u at all... the only irritating thing is that the food there is horrible so dun think abt eating there.... normally bb n i eat at jb 1st n den we go there with tibits or something...

something's going on

there's plenty of stuff on my mind... but the time is not ripe to reveal it yet... i'm quite excited abt what's going to happen (if it will) those who know abt it pls dun let the cat out of the bad till absolutely confirmed ya...

i wish time would pass quickly... forward it to the end of the month n den it will be PAY DAY!!! yeah....


been shopping around far east quite a bit lately... but it seems that i CANT get anything nice at all... wanted to get a white bag (those that u sorta can sling abit along ya side) but it looks quite causal, so it probably wun fit what i wear to work normally.. sigh...
saw a pair of retro heels.. quite cool, a mixture of orange-red with shiny golen brown ribbon in front... but den i even noe if it will match my clothes.. what a bother...
i think i feel that it a bother bcoz the 2 items were a steal!!! omg...

PuRplE kNeE!

been resting at home these few days.. nothing seriously exciting... but it was so irritating... i think i seriously have some problem judging distance... i had a super bad knock on my knee cap yest @ work... stopped me in my tracks for somewhat like eternity.. den i couldnt realli move v much... it had this annoying feeling in the knee.. n within a few hours there were traces of the blood clot alreadi... n the numb feeling in my knee... omg... by the time i knock off, it was all purple....

1 big patch on my knee.... my goodness..

EaTinG tImE!

just back home from bb's place.. he invited a few frenz over for steamboat.. thought we didnt have much food but ended up just nice coz pk came late n finished it all up... just nice... i luv this kinda ending so there's no wastage n u wun feel as if u let the hungry children down..

the guys stayed on to play mahjong.. i kept falling aslp on the sofa.. didnt have energy to sit at the table much less win money.. so decided to keep away from gambling (n my 4d didnt win any prizes!!) bb saw me keep falling aslp so helped me load the chairs into the car n i returned home.. i was so tired that i forgot abt taking the stools up when i got off the car but wth... i'm too tired.. leave that till tml...

my dear fingers

did i forget to mention that both of my index fingers are injured?! the crab got itself into my finger leaving the poison in my finger... den my right finger got cut by dunno what.. den last sat i tried to get money out from my wallet to go zouk n the cash got caught right in the cut! ouch! omg... n the pain just pierced thru me... after visiting the washroom my finger bled.... haiz...

Sometimes Losing is Good

received a surprise call today.. one of the last names that i would expect to appear calling me..
andy kueh - the last time he called me was to ask abt oakley.. that was something like last month.. not too long ago ya... but still.. i didnt expect that..

i thought he wanted to ask abt oakley again.. but i was wrong.. its abt car this time.. ask me if he shld get those black little things that u stick on the door that will prevent the paint from coming off just in case u open the door too widely in the car park? omg.. that's like super ugly.. hope he dun get those.. look like ah-chek's car.. behaving like an ah-chek b4 he even turn 30? oh pls.. i refuse to even look at those little things... i seriously hope he wun get those things...

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anyway... i realli must thank every1 and any1 who has told me that i lost weight! it realli makes me feels as if i can float.. (regardless of whether u meant it or not) haha... something that andy said today realli made my day.. my face is slimer now!! yeah! that's another last thing that i would expect.. less fats on my chubby face! i think i cant wait for all of the fats to be gone but i think that's gotta scare plenty.. just a little left will do.. coz i dun wanna look like the freaking scary lady doctor who is aging and has totally no fats on her face... coz i think she no only use botox on herself but also she 'la pi' by herself... n she dun look nice @ all.. when i age i wanna age gracefully and still look pretty :P at least be a 'lao chai'... hehe...

bb dun like me to b skinny.. so whenever we are out he will order extra food so as to make me eat.. everytime i eat i feel so bloated that seeing the good food go to waste is so sinful... den no choice i try to eat those that i like n push the rest to him.. hehe...

i have a big huge secret to tell everyone...

how to keep yourself skinny and lose weight..
DO NOT EAT BROCOLI!!
seriously... do that n u will suceed... i'm not kidding... believe me n u gain (knowledge and not weight!) hehe

Good things come in 3s

quite a few updates.. mostly joyous events

1. my precious is fixed.. got it done quite cheap... but still a few hundred dollars.. omg... pocket is empty alreadi... quite a bit of trouble having to find some1 to get it fixed... n its realli troublesome when u dun have a car to get to the workshop!!

2. zouk! doesnt the sound of the name get u excited? esp when u r going out with ya gfs?! its been soooooooooo long since i went with my pretty gals.. made them buy me drinks... haha.. that's for dumping me for other guys! all in all, its all fun n i enjoyed every moment..

3. went back to gucci to get the card holder! the one i saw @ ngee ann had a stain mark.. n it was quite late alreadi so the staff couldnt check if paragon had any stock... so 2 days later which is today went all the way back to see if paragon has stock..

anyway all 3 nice events.. i like...

but...
bb has been acting real weird today... got into a fury over a skirt.. n his face was so grim all the way till he got off the car.. haiz... i dunno what has got into him..

My prEciouS is HurT!!

i did something realli dumb... i dented my front bumper by going into a wall at the car park... so much for being careful... omg...

i so wanna die now... stupid me... i'm so angry with myself...