Raindrops keep falling

Normally when i'm on e cab home fr e airport, i'd fall aslp in my seat.. This morning i couldnt..

I looked out of e window as i passed e familiar ecp.. the clouds were so grey, so dark.. suddenly, i could see raindrops falling onto e winscreen.. from the tiniest water drop to e point whereby i couldnt differentiate e water droplets anymore.. i couldnt even see e car in front of me.

Den it dawned on me.. this is what i'm feeling right now.. my tears wanna fall, but they just cant.. not anymore.. mayb i'm just too tired.. i could feel e pain that have pierced thru, but my tears just wun flow.. but i guess this is also a gd thing. i've had enough of puffy eyelids, edematous conjunctiva, overactive lacrimal glands.. n perhaps someone out there knows e pain n e sky is crying for me..

i've gotten myself in all this nonsense.. i put myself in such a situation n i think i dun deserve anything gd anymore.. too many mistakes, i cant forgive myself.. this is e pain that nothing or nobody can feel or take away from me..

For all e mistakes i've made, i know i cannot erase e hurt i've caused..

Regret is an understatment..