it's over.....

had my ppt today... so much for being nervous n running over my own words at every other sentence... its nerve-wrecking standing in front attempting to explain things that i arent realli familiar with.. imagine the entire ppr was split into 4 parts n u dunno which part u gotta present till 2 mins b4 the thing starts... i was thrown the easy but not yet easy portion -- the finale.. fortunately after fumbling for so long i scraped thru with enough time to thank the audience! phew, coz the previous grp w/ 4, the last speaker actually had to skip alot of slides to finish up on time...

after all that, came home for dinner n popped by holland v. initially thought i could go wala wala for some booze but decided to have some 'healthy' diet afterall.. orh..... there goes my booze... coming back to it, i miss my booze this week... get me a beer now!! omg i seriously miss my wine~~~~

i m so glad no need to rush to work anytime this week, juz relax n resume my wine search... desperately trying to find somewhere for a nice wonderful holiday... got some ideas but still having doubts... mayb coz i have too much in my mind n so little $$!! once again... pls drop me some $$... lolxxx

last week~

coms r rather idiotic… last night i was trying desperately to log in n i couldn’t?! wth? n juz a few moments i couldn’t publish my own blog? what’s this?! @#$%^@* coms r juz stupid….. so angry…

anyway had dr koh’s test this morning. 30 mcqs sounds easy but seriously not true… 1 peek at the 1st question n i went like w.t.h.?! but somehow managed to get over it n now attempting to study for eic, dispensing n life sci… can u believe it 3 tests in 1 day? N how can i study for an elective that I didn’t choose myself? Its all w. tang’s fault!! so disgusting… Omg… juz leave me alone… n my fyp ppt is kinda like stuck actually its like so simple stuff but i need so much time to prepare everything juz to make sure every1 can understand me… I think i will keep running over my own words n look like a ridiculous freak standing there… cant wait for all the shit to b over… 2 more days right now leaving to study for all the nonsense n viv better make sure that her test is easy…

4 more days of sch n counting…..

1 more week

coms can sometime b a real bother... wanted to log in desperately yesterday but i couldnt?! dunno what's happening here...

had dr koh's test this morning 30 mcqs, sounds easy but when i saw the 1st qn i was like "what the heck?!" but managed to hand in my paper early with plentiful of cancellations, scribbles... now trying to touch up some missing points of my fyp ppt.. i hate fyp, so idiotic i realli hope the lecturers DuN ask silly qn... i think i will probably freak out during the ppt n keep running over my own words... so silly i have got 3 tests tml -- eic, dispensing n life sci.. omg life sci is such a bother, a stupid elective that i didnt even choose myself... idiotic w. tang... now juz praying that all the reading juz now helped...

its the last week of sch alreadi... after wed, life's gotta b a breeze... shld find a nice place on wed night to chill... haha always thinking of relaxing b4 getting over all the 'shit' work now... juz let it b over asap!! n mayb after all that den i can actually eat properly... right now leave me to prepare for all the nonsense that i gotta get fr all the lecturers on wed..........


4 days left n counting...

haha realli been time since i update.... getting more n more lazy... but actually its really bz recently... got test coming mon n another 3 tests coming tue my final ppt is on wed! n the last clinic session is on thurs n i gotta celebrate on thurs i dun care!!

btw last tue went pm last minute... my colleague's uncle passed away n had to take over as they were short of manpower... basically went there for 4.5hr -- 1hr to warm up, 1 hr to eat my dinner, 1 hr slacking in the shop, another hr talking nonsense to my colleague and the rest counting $$ n can u believe it i didnt sell a single thing!! omg if my OM knows this he'd probably regret hiring me... n for goodness sake i arent a 'vase' there! after that went down to pho-chine (if that's the name) @ wisma for 'supper'. wne about 1/2 jug of carlsberg.. its a nice atmosphere there juz that the food there arent that great. more like a place for me to drink only... ---seems like i m getting to b more like an alcoholic huh--- but anyway, it doesnt matter as long as i dun grow any more horizontally... i will b quite happy now if not narrower seriously... if booze is making me gain weight soon u wun find me eating solid food anymore.....

den yesterday... haha grad performance... finally a performance by optometrist-to-be n a phd holder!! but its it werid to b wearing clinic coat to sing??? but nevertheless it was a great performance, way to go optom! the most memorable was probably chris going on stage to limbo-rock! haha a big gorilla attempting to manuvore his way under the pole... but i muz say he sure is sporting... lolx... taken our class photo not every1 in but still hope that it turns out well.. coz it gotta b beautiful memories... the last of my sch life, so fast 3 yrs have past.... n its time to move on to the next phase of my life... i kinda cant believe it, it realli seems like yesterday that i juz stepped into yr 1..

anyway after today's session i m left w/ 2 more clinic days... coming sat n next thurs, its both hurray n boo-hoos... luv for it to be over to move on but yet i know i will miss these days... haiz... i dun think any1 can understand this kinda feelings... the luv n hate relation... but something i know u muz learn to continue n what is impt is that u feel happy doing what u wanna do n something for sure i wanna practise optomertry -- at least for the time being heez...

two more thurs to survive~

haha fen is gotta join me @ the lingerie show... so exciting n cant wait to go now..... sounds like a big kid but honestly not at all... love lingerie love to watch them on the runway too... heez...

had clinic session today nothing much did 3 GE n finally hit my quota but i think its safer to hit another 6 more to pull my marks up it gets sicker by each session when the lecturers expect so much more n yet i m pretty much stuck there...basically dun enjoy clinic sessions now anymore prefer to sit back n relax rather than be in clinic n worry how much marks u gotta get...

my evening

Had sch yesterday… its getting more n more difficult to survive the last few days… terrible… skipped life science class as usual n went orchard to do some shopping… happened to drop by tangs n found some wonderful lingerie, n they actually invited me to their lingerie runway show on 2 apr!! omg, its supposed to b a first in singapore (i think) n I m so looking forward to going for it! Asked fen to go w/ me so still waiting for her reply.. after that met my classmates n dr koh for dinner, it turned out more like supper! lolx… the food there was what I call terrible n xpensive, DUN let me go there for meals ever again… n every1 pls dun visit LANNA thai restaurant @ Boat Quay! Trust me u will regret it… crabs there are what the chinese would call “da zhong lian zhuang pang zi” but shells but no flesh… what a disgrace… after that went fullerton for drinks , I muz mention that is a beautiful place for drinks, nice atmosphere, environment n everything is just so perfect there.. except that their tables could be a little smaller… managed only a glass there what a pity coz its dr koh’s treat, if I didn’t had the stupid prac test today, I would make every1 drink w/ me heez… sounding more like a die hard alcoholic… according to zk, if I even had to report when I m drinking to my mum, she’s gotta b a bz lady… some1 shld come up w/ the rule whereby at least a glass of wine is compulsory w/ meals!! Seriously… I think a world w/o wine is a terrible place to be in… dun ever let me live w/o wine pls…. cant imagine when I m pregnant n must abstain fr alcohol, I probably faint… lolx…

Yah mentioned about prac exam today… had edging to do , fortunately didn’t drink a lot last night otherwise I would probably have difficulty trying to focus on dotting the lenses… thx bestie for monitoring my alcohol intake n your bed if I need to crash over, probably need it next week heezz… den I shall bring one from my collections to share… just for my bestie… that’s to apologise for the incident 3 days ago… :)

Its' only luv~

it seems that i only speak of luv according to ms lala, with regard to what ms lala has mentioned, i shall once again put my focus there...

Love is what's left when being in love has gone. It's when you care about someone and you hope they're happy, but you are not under any illusions about them......In the end, its the only love that matters.

Its kinda intriguing... luv... so beautiful and yet so ugly at the same time.. juz like when u r in luv, ya partner is so wonderful n everything gd, n when the sparks r no longer holding out u can say anything horrible just to get away... it happened to me... i chose to leave some1 few months back, when we were together everything was so perfect initially till the breaking point u start finding faults in every little thing. n when u declare its over, u start to ponder abt all the gd things that u have missed out... but at that point its to late alreadi coz all the unpleasant words have been said earlier...

Every1 claim that they have luv, so did i. i tried my best (if u believe) n at times u end up being hurt by giving it all in luv... i guess i m one of the best examples. my past relationship was a high n low emotional one, so many things going on at the same time.. it difficult to understand certain things, they will b 4ever so mind-blogging.. life moves on whether u like it or not, right now u can only hope that the past 'him' is better off n happy to continue w/ his own life... every1 has their own life to lead n no1 shld b there as an obstacle... dun wear the burden on yourself, dun even think of hanging it around ya neck, get it off n proceed... that's not an illusion but real...

Love matters alot to me n many others too.. coz every1 is still around bcoz there's luv.. its only whether u realise it or not.. i choose to take the slow path now i arent in a hurry n no1 shld b in a hurry unless u r forty n aging real fast... lolx

One of my fav~

its been a longgggg time since i blogged... kinda bz w/ my sch stuff n work again... juz got home n bathed... went out w/ my colleagues for dinner n drinks... omg its been some time since i touched booze.. not to mention my trip to m'sia. i had about half a bottle of my fav-- wine! haha kinda boring since i always drink the same kinda red liquid.. its juz that its at a different place n a different make.. hmmmmm.... dun think i will ever get sick of it unless some1 tries to pour it down my throat on my bday... but if u guys r realli thinking about it, u can forget it... coz it doesnt work! Lolx... i dun deny i luv to drink esp. wine.. so if any1 is trying to find company for wine, pls find me........ :)

thurs again~

jVs? who r u? no idea who u r but if u saw me on 28th feb mon that wasnt me... coz i arent around on mon morning... on other days mayb, coz i m still desperately saving to get my 1st set of wheels... anyway, sat for the test today, horrible 1, couldnt understand the questions n juz managed to scrap thru it... but whatever, as long as i dun get too bad a grade.. n another day, ya msn... my email: suyin_slayer@hotmail.com

had clinic practice today, so idiotic, only 1 stupid px for contact lens aftercare and that's all for the day... wasting my time n leaving me to freeze in my own room... sure die la.......

den went to suntec w/ wanfen, had nydc for dinner, yum yum... wonderful meal w/ one of the nicest mudpies... my saliva droop everytime i think of it.. walked around alittle n by 9pm most of the shops had their shutters down, not realli surprised but so disappointed.. been kinda bz lately no time to shop around (except yesterday) heez... bought a skirt n 2 tops yesterday complete w/ a beuatiful bracelet w/ my big initials on it... like it alot, not trying to b bimbo-tic but i seriously think its gorgeous n gotta ask every1 about it.. lolx