busy with stuff~

bz, bz n bz... if i haven been updating often, it means that i'm realli bz...

went for 'halloween' last sat... nothing special... coz 1stly i didnt wan to go club at all... i was only interested to go for drinks but i DIDNT wan to club... i seriously didnt know why i went... went butter factory (ATTN: jervis chia. its BUTTER factory and NOT CHOCOLATE factory! get them right 1st!) i tot the music was quite nice initially... but after a while it wasnt so fun... perhaps the ppl at the club wasnt realli that 'eye-candy', totally not hot n i wasnt dressed for the occasion... super irritating... what a disgrace to appear there... forgetable experience except for meeting an 'iMAC'... can u imagine a man removing the insides of an imac and place it over his head... and on top of that painted his face so scary den lit the insides?!i almost freaked out when he turned around!! his face is SCARY!!

anyway... been trying to fix my handbook and organise my luggage... quite nervous (coz i dun wanna forget things) i'm probably more nervous abt meeting my colleagues than meeting my pax... haha...

inflammation~

i hate throat inflammations... somehow i'm so prone to that... imagine i used to have 2 inflammations within a week...

once again, i'm having a throat inflammation, n i dun have much voice left... i cant speak out loud n i hat that!! no phone conversations, no long face-to-face conversation!

kinda pissed by the virus...

Bb~

john mentioned that i appear happy during our msn conversation yest... it made me realise something.. hmmm.... is it realli that obvious? ya, i do feel happy and i think its realli good enough for me.. there's realli nothing more that i can ask for now...

bb played a big part in my life.. nothing i say or do can express the joy in me, he has given so much so much... the amount of care n concern is something that i can nv win n something that i have nv experienced b4, n yet i get ample amt of space to breathe... nv have i feel so blessed as a human being, with all the showers of love from him...

days became months, months became years... i tot i would have to feel insecure being tog with him, but i was so wrong... i nv have this kinda feeling for all the time we had spent tog... nv once had i need to doubt him..

i luv u, baby.. i realli do...

Lilian's 21st

It was lil's 21st birthday, how can i give it a miss?! it was a great hang-out with batch 885... went to this place "one-night stand" (sounds v suggestive, but its realli nothing like that) the pub at clarke quay... too bad it was so warm or i shld say hoT!! think i almost died from the heat... but still it was a great nights' out... super nice bamd -6 in the city- will be back there soon... looking all forward... these are the only photos i had.. the rest of the images are all in my mind...



b4 dinner arrived.. all the 'love-to-take-picture' ppl, including myself



sitting alfresco waiting for dinner..



bb, need i say more...



view from the 'top' (i'n not super tall so dun expect it too high k?!



all trying to squeeze in... super happy!



that's the birthday getting her tequila from 'ons'!



haha, kiss from the birthday girl! hmm... some1 else got it too! n boy what a lucky person...



me and lydia... all so 'high' with dancing... super hot...



this is the last one b4 being knocked out...

tots of complain

took the test today... think i did like shit... i was super nervous when it came to the commands... super gan chiong... but when it was my turn i got the 'crash landing' i was like "what? i studied so hard to take the simplest one?" but boy, i was still relieved... at least i got them out correctly, just that it was not loud loud but at least i got the sequence right (i think) that's the good thing when u r the first or the last to be tested... u tend to get the easier one... coz the trainer is so sick of listening to the 'perfect' answer that they get so bored... but in simple, i think i got majority of the test stuff over, except for another command thing tml... lets leave that for tml's worry.... shall relax and sleep well tonight...

leaving for incheon on 4 nov, dunno what its gotta be like... would i like it or would i not? i hope that everything would run smoothly... suddenly it feels as though all the service tips that i learnt is long long gone... i even forgot how it is to make a bloody mary... omg... its kinda cold over there, pray that my new roxy would do it job... no1 in the right sense of mind would wanna suffer from things like hypothermia... i dunno what else can i eat besides ginseng chicken, please prove me wrong.. i dun wan kim chi either...


somehow there's plenty of stuff that i cannot understand, the relationship btw 2 human beings... there are some who can mix v well, n on the other hand there are those who can nv talk nicely to each other... i dun believe in trying to much in these kinda things... coz most of the time it backfires... u can say that women are petty, i seriously wun deny... there are certain things that i can nv erase from my mind... be it an innocent gesture... once i cant stnad it, the image is totally embedded in my mind... i'm so sorry that i have to do this, but it just disgusting attitude to me... i can accept that ppl cant stand certain things, but displaying attitude is definitely a no-no...


i miss the hair that was kempt, easy to manage... right now after all the bunning, hairspray and all the nonsense, my hair is totally out of control... omg... super dry, super out of shape and super untidy.... sianz... super sianz... need to go for treatment... but the stupid thing is that i always talk n dun do it... push me, push me to do it...

my mistake

bb's unhappy... sob sob... all bcoz of a silly little thing...
nvm... shall humour him tml...

another saturday gone

got some cuts and bruises from 'sliding' too much... not going to complain coz that's part of training... just pray that they heal fast and not leave a scar... starting to get paranoid abt alot of things... feeling all zonked out with all the jumpings and n of late, my memory is getting worse... probably just feeling lazy...

went harry's last night... met a few of my pri sch mates... wasnt as packed as i tot it would b... probably the ppl are watching soccer either at home or in the coffee shops... didnt do much.. just chill... it was kinda hazy last night... i think even cigarette smoke smells better and dun cause so much of eye redness... n it was bcoz of the haze, bb didnt feel too well... wasnt in the best mood... dunno what's he is irritated abt, perhaps its bcoz of fri...

sorry, baby..

more to come

haven been up here lately... so 'lag' in the updating...

started the safety training on tues... able to let go of the makeup and do colours that i like... hmmm... yellow and pink is GREAT!! i still remb i did it for my 1st interview... got the inspiration of an x-colleague who got the original colours from dior... realli pretty colours but i cant get them anymore... fortunately i got something similiar from h&m... warm colours but nice cool effect... tried them on lydia on wed... got great feed-backs... hehe....

been having dinner with bb for the past 6 days except sat.. up to my throat every night... omg.. i can hear the fats mocking at the fact that the are staying in my body... they seem to scream as if they were here to stay for a long long time... oh no!!!

having more tests next week... there's some swimming stuff also... cant wait to enter the water... hope to have fun but not too tiring... coz there's so much that i need to complete

the good news is.... next month, i'm going to incheon (korea), melbourne and brisbane... hope everything goes smoothly... dun get the silent treatment...

going to bed alreadi... been for the slide for 3 days... my bum is burning from it and my legs are sorta aching... so much for trying to be fit and healthy...

visiting

going to the airport tml... i wish i was going to send some1 off but its not that!! gotta do some visit tml and i need to be there by 8am?! omg... so early... ignore my naggings and complaints coz i'm always full of all that shit... i enjoy sleeping as a hobby v much now... and probably for the next 6 months...

recurring pain

the pain in the left of my chest wouldnt go away... it coming back so bad that i think i wanna faint... every breath that i take is taking me more n more effort... the urge to cough and the itch in my throat is scary... i dunno what seems to be the prob but i realli cant stand it anymore.. dun realli have time to go to the doctor either... i cant stand having to wait in the queue... its wasting too much of time... i'm waiting to see how it is tml..