what a way to end the day

today had to wake up earlier den usual for meeting... but somehow i had a v irritating dream.. woke me up b4 the alarm clock went off... n i had so tired... i juz knew something was gotta go wrong...

nothing interesting at work... juz the usual juz that its a long day w/ so many hours in the shop... didnt make me feel v good either... juz feels good to be leavng for home @ 10pm...

its was about 11 plus when i was walking from the bustop to my blk.. i noticed there was not many ppl around today... then i went into the lift with this man... i pressed 13 n after that he pressed 21... i haven seen him before... somehow my instincts told me to take out my keys for safety purposes... juz b4 the door opened, my phone rang n i picked it up while walking out of the lift... i opened my gate n den i realised that the sick followed me to the door!! siao ta bo!! when i turned my head to see him he squat down n tried to hide behind the pillar... my hands trembled so much that i had difficulty opening the door.... my heart was literally popping out of me... realli scared the hell out of me... wth, why is there such sick stalkers around?!


i hope that guy kana banged by some car when he's leaving my blk... n nv wake up from coma... i m dead serious... i gotta recognise his idiotic face n scare him by threatening to call the cops if i ever see him again!!

meeting postponed!

was supposed to be having a meeting @0930 this morning... had to leave home at around 0830 but i managed to wake up at 0800... so had to change my clothes in a hurry n rush thru my breakfast... was taking the lift down when my in-charge called!! "casey, r u on the way to work alreadi? uh, today meeting is cancelled..." wth.. last minute tell me meeting is cancelled?! if i haven taken my breakfast i dun mind, but i took mine alreadi!! haiz... so came back home to read my sunday times... (if u r juz thinking, yes i do read!!)

2 colleagues were taking mc, but as manpower is insufficient, one of them had to come back for 1/2 day... so sad... mc still muz come back n work...

not exactly bz today... juz had abit of things to do... somehow i like to keep myself bz, rather that sit there n stare in blank air... my colleagues always say, "u r always counting ya stock, arent u like sick of it?" well, i definitely arent sick of it yet... so be it...

actually believe it or not, i luv my job... seriously... i juz "comment" alot... mayb my next nick would b complain queen!!

for those who arent in my field of work... they probably admire the pay packet, but once they listen to the hours that i put into my work, they gasp!! well... that's how the world works, it arent that glamourous but that's fine with me...

time juz passes on...

sometimes i think i m mad... plenty of stupid ideas up my sleeves... shant reveal them yet so juz wait n see... i contradict myself so much... so much so that i dunno what i realli wan... mayb its all the work stuff that getting to me these days...

sometimes i m so contented w/ having juz hot water coming out from the shower head.. n at times i realli admire the gucci bag in the display cabinet... how much more can i go... so many views of me is being in the materialistic zone, but what can i say?! every1 believes whatever that they assume they see... juz like the relationship between me n other human-beings around me... every1's so curious about the life of others.. whether they r attached or otherwise... well once again, what can i say?!

to many, seeing is believing... so be it... i dun realli care...
let ya imaginations run.... only time will tell...

life is a vicious cycle

sometimes i wonder... it is status that impt to some1?? i get so confused... i think alot n i can get too deep in my thoughts... its funny how women can be weird creatures.. i do surprise myself at times... i recall one of my close frenz telling me...

she was going out w/ 1 of her guy fren... average-looking but i can say his fortunes r more than what u think it is!! not that she cares for the $$ that he has in his wallet... they were going out for alittle while... den suddenly things changed... he kinda stopped contacting her... y? it puzzles me, what the hell are men thinking?! i mean though they arent officially a couple so what?! that doesnt mean u can ignore some1 like that... it kinda shows how serious u can get... he sorta treated her like shit but she liked him anyway... once again what the hell is that guy thinking?! he shld be condemned... although i still hope that he will return to her soon...

its so subtle the line b/w dating n being together in a relationship as a couple... (read defintion of a couple: a man and woman paired) it puzzles it me alot, what's that line for anyway?

i mean u can go out together as a couple dating n b contented about it.... there would nv be any committment nv any downside of the relationship... wun it b easier that way?? only happiness n nv any sadness... i know what alot of ppl think... if a guy can b lidat he do that to many other gals right coz in the beginning there's no promises anyway... well.. mayb that's the only downside.. but at times when u feel lost, sick or juz down, there he is to comfort u n make ya day brighter, isnt that what you wan??

but when u r together in a relationship, the comittment is enough to kill u... its not like u dun luv that person, but u tend to put everything at risk... things r nv ever-lasting.. u juz make use of what's there... mayb u may even tend to take things for granted after a while... its nice to know that there's always some1 there to stand by u no matter what happens, be it a bad day, or juz simply sweet moments to share ...

life is a vicious cycle, sometimes i wish i was in the 1st choice, at times the latter.. i dun envy the ppl who r in god damn sweet relationship be in 4 yrs or 4 months... i luv the way i m now.. i dun worry about quarrelling. arguing etc...

i seriously luv the status i m now, simply nowhere... there's no1 to snatch away my memories n neither can u!! waiting to gloat at me?! that's gotta b a long wait till i fall into yet another transition zone...

for now i honestly enjoy going to work n my after-work relaxation indulgents!! heez...

got it all away~

idiot doc... gave me the stupid medicine n it didnt work!! the patches juz grew bigger n bigger... n the itch became worse w/ each sec... omg!! n the worst thing is that on mon after i went to work it got to my face!! that was it!! i was almost cursing the doc like mad!! i wanted my $$ back! it was like everything was juz as bad... the only thing that stopped me fr not going to work was bcoz of a bloody irritating meeting in the evening...

initially thought it was better when i woke up, but w/i 30 minutes it came back again!! bcoz of the stupid meeting had to work!! start work @ 1045, morale super low... hidden under long sleeves n long pants, n a ridiculously ugly face!! omg... kept complaining to mama all the time, calling her n bugging her... at lunch-time mama specially came down fr her office to comfort me n see my horrible looking face... feel so bad got her so worried these few days -- since my 'stomach flu' till now... took my meal outside w/ her n den wait for time to pass...

finally the day dragged by... 7pm, time to leave for my meeting @ cafe society... took a cab w/ my colleague, didnt exactly know the location n the driver juz dropped us off at some dunno-where.... we looked super lost while looking at the map n fortunately a helpful uncle asked where we were going... n can u imagine we were right in front of the building n we didnt know it?!

the location was abit ulu, opposite boat quay but the ambience is perfect... we waited for the entire herd of ladies to arrive... dinner was very much anticipated by every1 so we waited... it was a 4 course dinner -- western food lei... soup, followed by salad, main dish n dessert!! can u believe it? after the salad, every1 couldnt wait for the main course to b served... we had a choice of lamb, grilled salmon n spaggetti.. i chose lamb... it was alright, except for the mashed potato... i didnt like it with the garlic inside... tasted funny to me... so glad that i chose that coz the spaggetti was basically tasteless... n for the salmon it wasnt that great, coz the centre portion was juz too raw... omg... how can j&j treat us to such a terrible dinner?! to think that i always think they would bring us to places with good food?!

everything juz zoomed past... n the meeting officially started at 2200hrs... omg... almost 12hrs into work... i m falling into a daze b4 the meeting start... dun realli remember what that meeting was all about but i remembered it ended at 2315hrs... that's 15 min b4 i can claim cab fare home!! so sly of my boss to end the meeting minutes b4 we can claim $$.... this is a stupid idea... only can claim cab fare if u work till after 11.30pm... shit, like there's still bus services running at that hour... (simply disgusted) i dun get paid alot like my managers, neither do i drive to work... so i seriously think i shld demand the company to pay for my fare... lousy staff welfare...

but anyway shortcut to morning evening... can u believe it that stupid lady whom i tot was the fren of the butch is actually sh*wn's sister!! how do i know? that's bcoz she wrote in a COMPLAIN letter!! can i curse her?! i shant coz seriously i know i didnt do anything wrong, juz that she cannot accept the fact that i was firm with her sis... mayb it was the fact that i was smarter than her in terms of optical products... n mayb i was being sarcastic in her point of view... to put it better i think she said i juz wasnt professional... fine! since she's older den me, mayb she's more 'experienced' than me when wearing lenses... fine! den dun come n order lenses from my company... juz go to some stupid neighbourhood store buy n den try to fit it in herself for her sis!! think i realli care for ya business?! nope! i dun earn anything from it anyway.. probably juz another complain letter...

time flew... n it's wednesday... 1 more working day b4 i m off!! yeah... this morning woke up n felt better -- not from the complaint but bcoz of the 'rash'... it kinda cleared up at least it sparred my face n hands... mayb the detol did help afterall... felt as if it was a better start... at least after the complain la... haha... den got nice soup to brighten my day further... heez... nicey nicey soup... :) smells good n taste good...



btw fen... if reading this... i still remember.. u owe me a german beer!!

i m on mc n it arent fake!!

i think i gotta go mad!! i seriously thought that the stupid diarrhoea thing is gond n everything else... but the stupid thing is that it went away n some stupid skin allergy came.......

omg... its like the back of my hand started to itch like mad only to b aggrevated by some stupid 1st timer contact lens wearer... it wasnt the wearer that got me so mad but her stupid fren..... it was like i was trying to demonstrate how to wear the lenses n den her idiotic fren started by parroting what i was saying n after that added her own comments!! she kept elaborating the wrong things to her, i wanted to yell in her face!! i was so tempted to them her, fine i give u the contact lens and then when the both of u have discussed how to wear them den u call for me k!! the 2nd thought was to slap her face n ask her to shut up n get out of my way!! what's this, y not u juz take over my job then... what's the point of coming den?!! juz go to some neighbourhood store n buy them over the counter n try to stuff them into ya eyes, n u ever get them into ya eyes, i hope u get ulcer!! u fren of Sh*wn... bi*ch, may i call her that!! wasting my time testing my patience by teaching....... n mind u, Sh*wn is a girl!!, to think i saw the illegible writing to be sharon n i called her the wrong name!!, so pai seh........... if only i could hide myself away... but nevertheless i managed to pick myself back... den sh*wn had completely no idea of her own... she completely listened to her fren -- which i can almost say is her lesbian fren... n they concluded that contact lenses are not suitable for her so she simply changed to spectacles... great, save my time... but pls dun let me see u again when u coming to pick up the glasses, fren of Sh*wn.. dun ever let me see u again!!

at the same time, there's this stupid itch that bothering me so mauch n little bumps are emerging on the surface of my skin... omg! how can this happen?? what the hell have i done?! my hands went edematous on n off throughout the day which totally spoiled my day!! n i couldnt concentrate on what i was doing at all.. n can u imagine, last night was saturday night n i had to go home straight after work?! what a terrible day.....

n today....... i had to b on mc due to the irritating itch.... i cant believe it, its gotta waste 1 more day of my time n probably 1 day of my pay!! shit... i hate taking mc.... this entire morning i couldnt stop the itch n it made me had an extremely bad night... haiz... dunno what the hell i m allergic to?!! even the doctor had no answer...

n to add on my leg is starting to hurt once again!!

stomach flu?

i m starting to wonder... does anybody die from untreated stomach flu... well. its been three days alreadi!! omg... imagine three days straight having to rush to the toilet just minutes after my meal... the worst was when the day before i even dreamt of having diarrhoea that i couldn't sleep... omg.. i dun understand how this stupid thing can happen to me?? i seriously hope that it would stop by today otherwise i would feel so helpless... this is crazy...

something's wrong with me~

been tiring out easily these days... my working hours arent that long but i still tire out quite abit... today i feel lidat its probably bcoz of last night..... went to one of the nice drinking corners... shant tell ya where or u will go n spot me there... lolx... hahaha... had good company last night... actually was supposed to go catch a movie, but there dun seem to have any nice shows so end up go drinking... long time since i drank... miss alcohol.. starting to sound like an alcoholic dun i...

alot of ppl may disagree that alcohol is good... to me it helps me to bring on the next day... but trust me u wun wanna go drinking when u r feeling down, coz i think u tend to drink too much n become a nuisance... seriously... i only encourage drinking when in high moods... believe me or otherwise, u can decide for yourself... meanwhile, i shall continue to indulge (pray that i dun grow fat with all the beer in my tummy), if it ever bulges, i think i gotta jump...

bz day~

time realli flies... its gotta b a month long since starting work... only 3 off-days so far... i cant realli imagine how i got thru all that.. but well i did... it arent that bad, but it does get abit of difficult at times... its a long long road ahead of me...

today stationed at parco... heavy crowd there... couldnt realli breathe there... almost wanted to faint while the poorly-ventilated air-conditioning, da*n bad if i could use that word.. alot of ppl coming in n out, testing eye, 1st-timers trying desperately to put on contact lenses.. ppl checking out prices blah blah blah... actually its not bad trying to work at that place... juz that trying to find a quiet place to sit down for my 'lunch' is terrible...
imagine............... u woke up w/ a wonderful packet of beehoon waiting for u as breakfast... den some1 took it away for their own consumption... den decided to get a small bread for some light starters... 2pm ya stomach start rumbling... u wait for your turn to go for lunch n den.... finally 3pm, decided to go for lunch when some1 stepped in n wanted to try contact lenses for the 1st time!! omg.. den got so bz n forgot about food... when finally 4pm deswperately got out of the shop for LUNCH!! den walk walk n walk, cant find seats in the food court nor fast-food.... so settle down at breko for some not-so-tasty tasting sandwich... still nvm... wanted to do abit of shopping den see the ppl filling all the empty spaces on the streets!! omg.... i m realli so afraid of crowds!! cant stand it.... driving me mad.... den anyhow squeeze into empty spaces n den time's up, time to return to the shop... n den get headache... all bcoz of the stupid crowd! realli cant stand it...

after a long day... walked to suntec to try get my shopping done den got 1 idiotic indian attempt to talk some dunno-what-language to me... i simply ignored him n walked faster but he kept his pace so close to mine... didnt know what he wanted so i tried to walk faster closer to the pedestrians to make myself noticable... but he kept following behind my footsteps... so crazy... if only i could yell at him!! upon reaching suntec i slowed down n followed him instead... immediately seeing him turn right, i went to the left direction n viola....

another day gone

its only 2days since i didnt update, but somehow it seems like a long time to me... hmmm... starting to have the missing-urban-life symptoms now -- in simple -- no-life-without-com... omg, it mayb a serious infectious epidermic spreading!!

been rather stressed out at work recently... somehow i think too much when it comes to work.. my mind keeps surrounding the work stuff... soon my white hair gotta appear, i cant stand it... i m alreadi starting to have the stupid blemishes appearing on my face!! omg, this is terrible.. if it continues i think i gotta reconsider the path i wanna take... need something to help me destress... any ideas anyone?

tiring day, dunno y?

finally went to the dentist... got rid of all the unwanted stuff in my mouth... n can u believe it that i nv imagined my teeth could b so pearly white!! omg... now whoever wanna kiss me can consider.. lolx... but the bad thing is that my gum feel more sensitive as if it kinda hurt went i drink room-temp water... so whoever wanna consider kiss dun b too firm ya?! lolx...

anyway dunno y so tired today mayb last night stayed up late to upload my pix... not in here but into my com.. heez den early this morning have to lug my big heavy bag n visit the dentist... so tired juz wanna slp, tml going lc to b bored...

stupid day~

some1 asked me out for dinner the other day... its supposed to be on next wk, i haven did come up with an answer... thinking twice about the offer.. its supposed to be nothing.. but i remember saying "treat me for what? treat me for being mean to u?" well.. i think i may have impulse to say somethings but i mean what i say?! pardon me for being frank coz i arent good at expressing certain things... ppl come around ya life stay for a little while, leave behind some prints n leave your circle... i try not to think of things in a bad way but well it does get to u at times....


anyway today was i terrible day!! early in the morning was trying to egde an urgent pair of rimless when i block all the lenses, set the stupid edging machine n pressed the v impt "green" start button... i tot all was going well until my in-charge said," hey why u egde the left lens 1st?" den that was it, as every1 knows normally we edge the right lens first, but i stupid traced the left lens n forget to change the setting!! omg... my super-duper urgent job! gone down the drain... n the funnie thing is my in-charge stopped me only when the lens is almost done! omg... den kana his "niam niam niam" den the day deteriorated... :'( quickly try to re-order the right lens n the stupid e*s*l*r, no1 pick up the phone! all the ladies like suddenly disappear... finally some1 picked up the phone n process my order, den push for earlier time n she said 3-4pm lidat... so no choice wait lo...

meanwhile... some idiot 16 yr old kid came in to try contact lens, 1st-timer so bo bian have to teach, at 1st thought he ok 1 den do eye-check for him lor... after i finish checking his prescription den the problem started!! his mum came n make a big fuss say her son nv tell her the truth that he wanna try contact lens den super angry stormed out of my shop... i was super determined to not let him leave w/o paying me (btw yes, i DO charge for prescription check!!) i dun care, no1 was leaving w/o paying $$ for wasting my time! so went on to teach him how to insert the lens... see his expression so determined to have the lens in the eye n ignored what i was trying to tell him... serves him right for feeling pain when he pry his eye so forcefully (haha)... den check fitting n everything ok so teach him how to remove the lens... den of coz muz teach him how to clean right? so ask him to look at me while i show him, den he ignore me again!! stupid kid so rude to me!! tell him nicely muz rub both side of the lens, but he come n tell me the solution got touch the lens what! so i raised my voice at him n say "U DIDNT LISTEN TO ME!!" teenagers are realli rude nowadays... haiz... anyway stupid kid still not enough... let him go w/ that so wait for him to pay $$, den another problem started... young kid try to pay w/ debit card... stil nvm, somehow my visa machine didnt churn out the paper (that's not bcoz of no paper), so i try again, but haha the transaction was declined!! tell the stupid boy nicely transaction declined use nets also declined, can use cash or not... dun wanna believe me so he actually called the bank?! say the bank side approved, pissed me off at the same time... stupid kid again... muz keep scolding... made me make so many calls everywhere n in the end i make him pay me in cash... he had to beg his mum back into the shop to pay for him... lolx so xia sui... idiotic kid keep insisting that the bank side approve wanna cheat me of that stupid $15 can u imagine, a stupid 16 yr old trying to pay $15 using a debit card?! idiotic D*n*e* S*o* Y*n*W*i.. nv will i forget his name... juz get him out of my sight... btw, i hope u can an ulcer for mishandling the lenses?! mayb even when the lenses are torn keep them in your eyes ya?! n dun forget pls sleep with the acuvue clear lenses!!
finally he left... w/ smoke coming out from his mum's ears

back to the spectacle lens
almost 4pm already, still no sigh of the lens... deep shit is coming up... den called again to pester the lady but again muz attempt super duper many times b4 some1 actually pick up the phone... omg... she actually claimed that the despatch would only leave the factory at 4.30pm n my customer is gotta pop in anytime soon!! shit... den 6pm still no sign of the lens or despatch... what shit?! called the company no 1 answer.. every1 has left for the day, so tried calling the stupid manager's hp but also no answer!? what kinda manger is this? so irresponsible... den finally the customer come to pick up the specs den no specs to give her... fortunately she's so nice so volunteered to send to her hotel as she's leaving tml... so embarrasing... tml is my day off but still muz worry if she get the glasses or not, den confirm muz call e*s*l*r n give them my piece of mind... scold them like mad... that's wad i gotta do tml...