1st day..

1st day of training... quite tiring... getting up early is one thing, having to endure the afternoon hours is another story... i know i'm supposed to be enjoying the entire pricess while i'm at it... but i realli cant wait for the 1st 2 months to be over so i can get on my 1st flight... reallii realli cant wait for that day to come..

pray that i dun fall aslp in class tml or in the days to come...

2 more days!

its the last 2nd day of work... i cant wait for it to be over... the fact that the kinda shit i'm getting with my superior to be not-at-all-understanding, i cannot imgaine who can take this kinda shit.... i cant wait for the clock to strike 1930... that's time to knock off and its happy hour time (not that i'm going for drinks)

its last monday that i'm gotta work at that place... v happy to get away from it.... gotta pay my way thru all these nonsense.. but its all been decided.. dun think anything else can get in the way anymore.. almost argued with bb last night regarding the contract issue... i hated all the shit that i got myself into and i simply needed to whine abt it.. he didnt realli understood why i was acting this way but i guess we got over it... its just abt money at the end of the day, but mayb i'm just too stubborn, i wanted to win and it was my fault in a way..

gotta be quite penniless for the next few months, gotta welcome anybody's treat for meals.. haha... its gotta be another kinda lifestyle.. wake up early, get my butt off the bed, and diving into the mad traffic rush... but still i hope that everything will go smoothly.. i need to know that i made the correct decision.. i know this is a choice that i made since i went last month... i can only be thankful for the fact that i'm super lucky to be chosen and i'm gotta try...

some good news for myself.. the last 2 days of work, i will be able to be v peaceful, no moody face to look at.. yippie..

a pc of shit

there's a type of guy that i simply cannot stand forever...

guys who borrow money from u n simply refuse to acknowledge the fact that they need to return it to u... in specifically joshua the coward!! yest happen to see that jerk at heeren... gave him a chance to acknowledge my presence not once but thrice! and he simply chose not to do it! WTF!! (btw, j shall stand for JERK!!) he simply being a coward and everything bad carried a face that was scared of me... and boy, he SHOULD be scared.. simply bcoz i might just slap him across the cheek! being not only an idiot but also a completely disgusting chap... simply digusting.. whoever that gal who was with him was so so silly... pity that gal who had to endure his 'antics' and 'charms' coz to me, he's simply not charming anymore.. how can a jerk be nice? i must keep emphasising that i hate him!

i spared him the agony of being embarrassed n he didnt appreciate it.. so it arises to bad karma! trust me, jerk, they normally comes in kg for baddies, but for u it comes in tonnes!! millions and millions of tonnes that will overwhelm u forever... till the day whereby u vanish it still will haunt u like crazy...

n once again, Jerk, i hate u like crazy...
detest to the core...

i've gicen u too many chances and u simply didnt know how to appreciate the kindness... so dun blame me for not giving u enough 'face'.. u, yourself shall bear the consequences..

my goodness

i cannot imagine how i could have forgotten to mention abt my bos... its simply irritating once again, to know that how he can make use of his manpower... manupulating his staff... i cant stand it bcoz i'm one of his 'seeds' that he can play around with.... wth... i cant stand the fact that its happening bcoz i'm taking pay from him!! arghh....

i realli cant stand my boss... he's trying to take advantage of the fact that i'm leaving and making use of all the stupid info he have to manipulate whatever's that left of me... the feeling sucks... n seriously, i think my boss shld think abt what he's doing... making this a big fuss... n fyi, i haven talked to him for weeks... he's using a middleman to talk to me... how nice can this kinda boss get?

i hope that i wun b like that when i become a boss.. i shall try my best to be understanding and accomodating to my inferiors... realli, i'm going to try... but there's just some ppl that i wouldnt hire... ppl who make use of the office stationery to do stuff that's simply too personal... like what my colleague have done... its realli unacceptable to me... even if i'm of her religion...

4 More Days!

counting down to the number of days left at my current workplace...

excluding fri i have 4 days. therotically, i have another 3.5 days that's bcoz of sat's half day... hmm... cant wait for it to b over, not bcoz i can bid goodbye to optometry, but i can see something different that i haven experienced b4.. another pushing factor is simply bcoz i cant stand who i work with... i'm fine that we dun talk, dun stand in my way.. i know its not easy to work with me, but i guess i have to learn with it too.. cant b too nasty or it will come back to me one day.. had enough of all the bad karma stuff.. i kinda believe it too..

come next wed n its all going to b different. heard that its going to b abit chaotic and nevertheless stressful.. hope it wun make me lose my appettite... already having abit of stomach problems nowadays, perhaps i've been eating too much of all the cold, raw food.. (think: iced coffee, salmon sashimi, lettuce in salads) and the oily stuff (think: chicken rice, roti prata) n now i know, mixture of all these nonsense is realli junk.. pls dun envy me that i can eat all these, coz realli u will get sick of it..

cant wait to go for training now... cant wait for jan to come... but yet there's so much that i need to do these days... so many things to do and yet so little time... wonder if there's time for dinner with daddy b4 he returns to aktau.. he's been a busy man since his return.. so many things to settle... think his white hair is getting more each day..

i need to tone up alreadi... dun think any1 can stand flabby arms.. imagine if u shake hands with a stranger and your arms flab?! omg! i desperately need to tone up but i'm simply too lazy... help! bb's gotta kill me if he sees this (but thankfully he cant stand reading blogs, no matter how hard i pester him to read it)

i need some exercise to keep the fatigue away... the strain on my shoulders is back... beginning to slouch.. slouching is BAD!! v bad for your shoulders and even WORSE for your health... it makes u grouchy and it causes u to fall ill.. seriously i'm not joking... get good posture and there wun b headache and that leads you to GOOD HEALTH! trust me, try it...

My SunDay~ w/ BB

quite a feww updates..

went home after the stay-over... being the first to fall alsp, i had the luxury of being left in a corner and one of the gals had to remove my glasses for me... didnt even know when ww left the hse for the 'night'.. woke up at around eleven plus and headed home to have 'brunch' b4 meeting bb...

can u imagine having to wait for the stupid bus for at least 15 mins?! its not like i'm waiting for that one single bus, i had a wide choice of 3 out of 7. that's like more than 40% chance!! n i had to wait for so damn long.. it was like super hot weather... i hate being under hot weather when i'm in jeans... it irritates me v much...

but anyway, met bb n went sentosa was supposed to join ann, but i seriously dun fancy meeting his bf (not at the moment) so instead of going km8, went to the usual palawan... my fav spot, simply bcoz its convenient for me.. bb dun fancy the beaches at sentosa... he didnt like the water around there saying that's its super oily.. i know he went bcoz of me... that's the only reason he went.. was supposed to b swimming but me being lazy, enjoy lying on the sand and have some eye-shut... knowingly fell aslp beside him. to my horror i woke up with my face flat on my beach towel and i still had my shades on!! the most annoying thing was that the left side of the plastic sunglass pressed onto my nose and there's an indentation on my already-so-flat nose! omg... n it hurts v much..

had dinner at seah im food centre only to realise that the nasi byrani's standard dropped... the chicken n mutton is not nice alreadi... but the rice is super fragrant!

Stay-over

long long time since i've updated... pls dun mould yet coz i've got plenty to 'upload'...

been to one of my pri sch mates' place on sat... she's leaving for beijing on on sat... she's going for 5 months.. sob sob... gotta miss going to her place and borrow clothes for 5 whole months!! :( she's the closest to me in terms of size and distance... so its easy to grab clothes from her place like the day b4 i have an event... n vice versa... that's what frenz r for!

we went to her place for a stay-over n u realise that after so long its realli not much different... coz the friendship runs deep n its so real... dun think anything will destroy this friendship that runs for more than 10 yrs (unless its some1's gf/ bf who is a jerk n try to do something funny, but i hope that this will nv happen) i will miss those days whereby we can meet so often n do nothing by staying at each other's place.. do crappy stuff like talking so loud on the bus that ww always claim that the entire bus of ppl will clap their hands once we alight.. as teenagers we were so roundy... but we didnt do anything bad as in illegal... just had fun but teasing every1 we know..

b4 going ty's place i had this craving for salmon so i simply had to buy some at cold storage... we basically watched tv and waited for ann b4 going out for prata... i mean how much food can my stomach hold? i cant imagine...
i had katsu don for dinner at 7 plus,
salmon sashimi at 10 plus,
prata at 11plus..
omg.. my stomach...
poor thing...

CouNtinG DoWn!!

I've exactly 9.5 days more left at my current company... 9 weekdays and 1 saturday..

yippie! i cant wait to go bcoz...

1. my collegaue is not exactly what i tot she is out to be... (u know those kinda ppl who only work when the superior is around) etc... i dun realli feel like elaoborating except for the fact that she wore a white skirt to work (when our dress code is BLACK), she wore slippers to work on sat (what nonsense is this?!) and when there's no customer she takes out her bible to read in the shop..

2. the lure of stc is more exciting... though there's so many many rules like u can only wear heels btw 1 to 3 inches and they must be with strap at the back or choose court shoes.. n u CANNOT wear necklace.. watches must be of either gold, silver or black... omg... think i gotta wear rolex there.. hehe... (Sponsors any1?) there's still plenty more regarding hair, earrings and etc...

there's so much that i need to change in my wardrobe too, dun think anything is wearable to stc except for my old clinic blouses... sigh.. i need a revamp of my closet!!!

sigh... gotta head to work already... :(
but its like

10 more days!!

customer service

i honestly think that oub centre has a problem with their management... the staff is downright lazy and unhelpful...

-- the inferiors cannot cover the task of the superior who was on medical leave for more than 2 weeks?! i mean if u cant cover i can still understand but u cannot promise to help and not give a reply... DUN promise if u cant do it... this is stupid... i mean if u realli cannot do it, think of an alternative way... didnt ya parents teach u that?! coz we pay rent and u dunno how to do things?

-- the most ridiculous thing is that u charge so much rent and when the rent is only 1 day late u charge exhorbitant interest!! i'm fine that it makes sense if the payment is late and u charge interest but the rate is worse than a loan-shark!! omg... how can this be?

-- all land-lords are the same... when they see u earning money, they want a cut of it, so they increase your rent by 100%... ridiculous... perhaps thats another way of asking you to shift out...

-- the staff is absolutely 'sucky' and they have a serious attitude problem.. no manners when they talk to their 'customers'... (What's your problem).. i simply hate ppl without manners... i mean if i talk to you nicely, i just be courteous ya? i dun find it very difficult, at most after u hang up the phone just curse la.. (once again, what's your problem?!) asking for u to get some1 to check out what's the problem with the unlit lights on my signboard is not that difficult right?! wth... give me plenty of crap and dun wanna listen to me 1st! what did they teach u abt customer service..

disappointed me time and again... what more crap can u give me?! thankfully, i'm not the actual tenant, but it teaches me a lesson when i wanna rent a space in the mall.. and fortunately, i'm leaving oub centre for good soon...

that's a temporary goodbye to optometry and hello to super dry skin...

The Magical Word

there's so much variation to this word ~ damn...

i'm quite amazed...
know i shldnt b doing this but i've been using it quite a bit recently..

1. damn = shit
2. damn it = the screw came off the frame and fell on the floor
3. damn sian = no customer in shop = no sales
4. damn tired = waiting for the last hour to pass in the shop

and something that i haven used b4...
Damnation..
saw this in one the books that i was reading previously...

alittle meaningless but i jus wanted to voice out whatever's inside me...

something more

i'm so tired these days... not tired abt work but have too on after work... met with ty, ann, ww for dinner at coffee club express.. think the gals r getting hotter and hotter each day... they are slimming down to the right proportion and i realli think they are hotter den me... n ww is putting on a bit of weight, looking better den b4.. hmm... it seems that when u grow a little u become hotter?! if that is so, i wanna grow too!!

but the stupid thing is i keep losing weight now.. too much stress when i return homwe and i cant eat properly... it seems like the more i eat, the more often i need to clear my bowels.. so i presume, the more u clear your bowels the lighter u become... if this occurred 1 yr ago i will be so happy... coz at that point of my life i think i was FAT. at least too heavy for my weight..

right now... let me calculate... if i were to gain abit of weight and climb up to 48kg, assuming they would remember my height as 1.66m

BMI: weight (kg) / height x height

48 / 1.66x1.66 = 17.5XX

so that will put me in the better books and refrain from some1 bugging me to put me in some weight gain program... for the sake of my future, pls let me b abit shorter...


anyway back to the previous topic... met up with them... quite long time since we met up, decided to gather once more b4 ty leaves for beijing on 26 aug.. she's going to beijing university for 5 months... omg.. one shopping buddy lesser for the next 5 months :(... not that she has alot of time for me but she stays so close to me and its easier to borrow clothes for last minute events...

if given a chance, i would simply have eaten thai express over coffee club.. but i realli cant b bothered to argue coz im so tired... just wanna spend some time with my frenz and food is not so much of an issue coz everything procacly taste the same... (recently i just got this thing for spicy soup, but i cant have too much of the soup that they serve outside bcoz it has so much monosodiumglutamate?) it will cause plenty of hair loss and i dun wan bb to start losing hair...

i've got so much i wanna say but it will take ages to get all of this out for me...

but b4 i forget, thanks fen for getting me what i wan at la senza(UK)!! love u lots... hehe... but the love has gotta be shared with bb.. :P

Horrible Driver

life cant get any shittier...

i was so happy as i managed to manuvore my car into a nice parallel parking lot somewhere at upper thomson.. and den i left to take dinner with bb... dinner was fine as i had so much to eat... happily walking back to the car n den i saw something that i nv would wanna see.. a long scratch mark of at least 15cm and there's 2 of it... initially i tot it was when i parked at oub centre and the stupid lorry must have whacked open the stupid door and cause that... but upon turning my head more to the front of the car, i saw an incredibly long black tyre mark and a HUGE patch of paint missing at the SAME side of the bumper which i fixed like LAST MONTH!!! f***! and all of this was none of my fault!! U IRRESPONSIBLE DRIVER!! banged into my car and ran away?! it must have been the stupid van driver in front trying to reverse out of the parallel lot... WTF!!! i realli hate to curse but i cant stand drivers who do that!! i mean if u did it just own up and i will forgive u rather den i get mad n u get scared etc... WTF!!

since u decided not to own up i have deicided to curse (not only u but the rest of your family too) n something will definitely go wrong with ya truck soon... Fucking lousy driver, so irresponsible..